i am the strongest

sometimes i ask myself "why must i have a cold-blooded friend?"

2009-03-22T21:49:00.002+08:00

in the early days,my life seems to in perfect of my world..i never think of anything bad before...my life was certainly in a good state and i am really happy in the past.lots of friends were happy with the way i am.this was actually my human nature..i love being happy as i knew that everyday is surely a new day for me.everyone must be wondering"what is the use of being happy when things get difficult for me?"i admit i get frustrated with certain difficult things but i know there is no way to force myself through learning.until a certain level of learning,humans could not really absorb,especially kinesthetic people like me.without the movements in learning,i think i will end up learning and also forgetting at the same time.as a result,i learn nothing.sometimes,there is certain things that we really need to do in order to learn.throughout my school days,i was really known as a happy,cheerful and outgoing person.many people loves the company of mine due to the fact that i have cheer them up although they think i am lame.mixing with a lot of friends is indeed a good thing.however,there is one friend who cannot be cheered up.he is a very lame guy and he has no pride in himself.he is none other than wan hao.having to be his friend for 2 to 3 years,i have seen his true colours.he is not as friendly as many people had thought of.he is really an idiotic person i have ever come across.nobody has been more idiotic than him.as my friend,he is always ignoring what i confide in him.he will just give a brush-off to me by telling me some hurting words.to him,it is nothing hurting because he is already a cold-blooded guy.however,i am still a guy with full of loyalty and love.the kind of ignorance he gave me is really making me sick.sometimes i just wonder"why is there such a character on earth?are every human born to be cold-blooded?"its really a tragedy knowing this person.sometimes i just wish i never talk to him before.i think girls will just run away as they know him.for a guy to be loved,he needs to be frank with girls.girls do not like guys who are really introverts and lame.they will rather go for somebody who really cares for them.worst still,they will not even like cold-blooded guys like wan hao.they will just get pissed off when they confide things to him.when i work with wan hao,i must admit that i am suffering every single day under his hands.in lim chu kang,he is favoured by the supervisor,boss and manager because he is always "hardworking" in front of them.in the reality,he is also the one who makes people pissed off in that camp.as i helped him in the past,he is always treating me like a slave.everything i do,he will just run away..this is him..when he do things,i always help him..even if there is little things,i will still be called down to help him.everything he does is all store-work.however,his store was really messy..past few days,i called him..he did not treat me as his friend.he just slam the phone when i called him..seems like i have to forget him as a friend....

living in a world of sparring is always fun and interesting...

2009-01-10T22:20:00.003+08:00

as the days are going by,i have come to a stage to master the wing chun moves.at first,it is really hard to stand up straight and get into the stance for stability due to the fact that my muscles were not so conditioned in this kind of positions.at first,i was not confident in learning the moves fast.thinking the way that bruce lee had went through,i put myself in his shoes and learn it with patience.i have no regrets leading the kind of lifestyle that bruce lee had ever lead before he passed away.he may be a bad example as he over-exert his body and die but his skills has been proven better than anybody in the martial arts world.however his life-span is fated to very short,especially his son too.everywhere i go,there is a tendency that people get crazy with me and they can talk a lot too.sometimes,people cannot step out of their comfort zone as they do not the habit to change in a sudden.it takes time to change a quiet person to a confident person.before joining MindChamps,i used to be a talkative person but not a very reactive person.after i graduate from MndChamps,i became a more confident and talkative.

very much in sick bcoz i hv got a disease...

2008-12-21T22:26:00.000+08:00

after workin for days,i feel very much happier because my mind was thinking of somebody for the whole day..she is the only one who can make me melt in my heart..i feel very much happier with her than anybody..being an ordinary person,love is always not in my books due to the fact that i am no good in expressing my love to girls.many girls find me a very bored person and they will only run away when they talk to me.it is somehow like my friend who has contracted A-Z disease.but the disease which i contracted is totally different.it is call Jessweet.a very special kind of disease.others will not get this disease,only a special person like me will have this kind of love disease.upon seeing my friend,Wan Hao,i feel like laughing at him because all his words are very lame.seeing him is indeed a suffering to Yong Hock and me.with him around at work,Yong Hock and I will just die without any notice one day..at this workplace,lots of favourtism is going on between Wan Hao and the boss.it is very obvious to us that the boss's mother prefer Wan Hao than us.with him around,everything seems to be going in his way.by acting very pitiful and hardworking can gain trust from the boss..i just hate this kind of treatment.in appearance,Yong Hock and I seem to be slacking around in the E-mart but we are very serious when we are supposed to..with all these favourtisms going around,it makes us very angry.to Wan Hao,it is a kind of achievement through his acting skills as he kept his cool and pretend to be working.the real fact is that he is trying to show how pitiful he is and gain sympathy from the boss.no matter how much Yong Hock and I work,things don't get in our way.that also means that we are not praised even though we are working hard.every morning,Yong Hock and I are asked to do the same thing over again and again.Yong Hock will have to sweep the floor while i cut the dried leaves and mop the floor.for Wan Hao,he is just standing there,doing the price-tagging.the shifts can never be changed.Yong Hock and i just cannot stand the way the auntie treated us.this treatment is obviously favouritism.there is a time,boss ask Wan Hao to paste the red stickers on reserved stocks.Wan Hao did not do the job at all and got the both of us into hot soup.we were totally fussed up by the doings of Wan Hao.till now,we do not like the auntie.thinking of the girl who i like,she is always in my mind.although we do not know each other early but our love for each other is very strong.she can read what i am thinking of and i can also read what she is thinking.maybe this is the fate between us.to me,having such a good girl is really a blessing from god to me.i have never been loved by a girl but i have loved many girls.however,my love was all one-sided love and i was very shy to even talk to them.in the past,i was a very shy person whenever talk to girls.as time flies,my guts risen.the girl whom i love now is the girl who is my syg.she is a very special girl which i have seen so far.we share the same kind of affinity.when i am with talking with other girls,they find me a very bored person and they would naturally laugh at.however,this is the only girl who i dare to tell her about my passion and interests.in the beginning,i thought she would be like other girls.but it turn out to be different from what i have expected.she was very interested to know about my personal life and how i build my body.sometimes it may be true that i love ato act and talk at the same time,but it comes naturally from my feelings.maybe i have watched too much tamil movies till i become like that.i have never seen a girl so different from other girls.to me,it is a surprise.i was still very scared that she might feel bored talking to me.this girl is also my gf now.i nv regret having this gf.she understands me in and out.i can only say that my heart had sinked for her...

everyday seems to be raining..

2008-12-08T22:46:00.000+08:00

after days have passes,my life gets sick everyday..i am actually working every single day.however,my working life seems to be very joyful and energized.having to work is just like a normal life to me..sometimes i see stars but most of the time,i see galaxies.when i work in the army,shoes are being stolen..boots are also being stolen.my time in the place seems to be used for walking around and talking to the soldiers..what makes me happy is that i get to talk to many indian soldiers and they were very impressed to se me speaking tamil to them..they even make friends with me..whenever they see me,they will become happy because i have a way to make them happy whenever they are down..my mood will make them change..nowadays,i can simply step out of my comfort zone and prove to people that i am not a shy person anymore..

nowadays,everything seems to get bored...

2008-11-28T21:41:00.000+08:00

after a long day of work in the army,everything seems to be very different when i got back home.it was indeed tiring but i was quite relaxed as i was stationed at the cashier in the job.my two other friends were stading at the shoe racks and shirts to make sure nobody scott free from trying the new shirts.it is just a common thing for me to see all these things going on at every single day.i got bored as the time passes but i was used to getting up early for work every day.my life was very normal as compared to a working man life.however,i am very different to them in character.all of them seem to lead their life in a boring manner due to the fact that they did not step out of their comfort zone to try new things.on the contrary of them,i did many things to be recognised by other soldiers in the army.i was very reocgnised by the indian soldiers as i am able to speak tamil in a fluent way.i have nobody to thank but i am very proud of what Mdm Sellathye had taught me in the past.in the school,i got famous through her teachings and i also maintain a good relationship with the tamil students.but the funny thing is that my life is all about learning tamil,i seem to forget about the race of me.chinese seems to be least important to me after years of learning tamil.people who communicate with me are facing diffculties as i am truly different from what they see me as.in the army,tamil soldiers got to know me as i spoke to them some basic tamil to get their attention.some of them were shock to see a chinese speaking tamil and also watching tamil movies.soon,i will become a famous character to the tamil soldiers.when i become an adult,i will get into the tamil movies as a first chinese-tamil actor..this is somehow in my dreams and interests...

the art of fighting without fighting,is it true?

2008-11-23T22:06:00.000+08:00

after watching to Bruce Lee's movies for many times,i am not even tired of his movies at all.on the contrary,i was even getting more ideas to act in movies for my future.his moves and his actions were really impressive.nobody can ever win him in these skills.his funny movies like "enter the Dragon" and "game of Death" is indeed a good movie.although there are many fights and revenge going on in his movies but it is very interesting as he is always doing all the fights in a secretive manner.Bruce Lee may not live long but his reputation live longer than anyone.nobody can ever have a life-time fame like him.it is indeed impossible to pursue a fame like him.nowadays,many people say that i got a look like Bruce Lee but i do not find that it is very true.he has the skills but i am still zero in learning his skills.but i am really walking towards his route as i believed.maybe i am the reincarnation of him.in these holidays,i have been working all day long in the army camp.it was quite a long journey as i have to do all kinds store work and it was very tiring.nowadays,life is just getting worse as i do not have the rights to decide for myself.lately,lots of things have been going on.in my working days,everything seems to be tiring for me as the life is truely boring but i get to know the life in the army.it is a eye-opener to me to be in this kind of working life.everyday seems to be tiring as we have to move goods and pack the goods is indeed a different kind of approach in life.this kind of job will make me sleep or doze off anytime.when i am working,my heart was flying to other sides of singapore as my mood swings.my boss was very aware that i am a very talkative person and also quite playful in certain senses.it seems that my life is fated to be like that.some people thought that i am really crazy but the true fact is only known by me.i am trying to act crazy so that i can bring out the laughter in everybody's restriction.i am very aware of the fact that i am not a very good person when i tell these things to the others.some of them laugh,some remain calm,others did not show any signs of movements.i know very well that i am not so powerful in motivating them to step out of their comfort zone.it is a very sad thing for me but i have to accept the fact.i am not sadden by this fact but saddened by the fact that i am not so capable in making them movtivated.however,it did not bring me down to a lower level.instead i got even more crazier and bolder.even how crazy i became,it is still useless.i am still unable to propose in my love life..

is life full of climax?

2008-11-14T23:40:00.000+08:00

nowadays,holidays are ongoing..i think most of the students are getting sick of staying at home.same too,i am also feeling bored staying at home for the whole day.i would rather take up all my time to train up others and learn how to be more confident.being a crazy outgoing person,i am also a very shy person.sometimes,people think that i am too confident but it is not the fact that i am that kind of person.on the contrary,i can be even more shy than a girl.i know that i am a kind of killer to many indians.having to learn tamil for approximately 3 years,i have no regrets to obtain this kind of knowledge.if i am going to regret,my life will be totally changed and i am not going to be happy.some people even wondered whether i am a chinese or a tamil.in my opinion on my personality,i think i am born into the wrong kind of culture which others also agreed.some tamils saw me learning their language,they felt offended.actually,there is no need to feel offended.basically,we should live up to our own.we should never rely on what others think about us.as a learner,i learnt many tamil songs and entertain many tamil students and teachers too.but the sad thing is that,my love life is never a pleasant sight as i know i am too shy to face girls.whenever i see them,i am totally,i am totally stunned and out of words.however,i try to keep my cool and talk to them as if i am not anxious.it was no use as they can see through my anxiety in certain angle.some teachers even told me that i am going to marry an indian girl as my wife.my only question is who will be the perfect indian girl for me?anyway,even if i am so attractive,why isn't there a good fame for me in the society?i guess i am too humble in my point of view.i am now very sad and feeling weak.why is this happening to me?this was because my dad had forced me to learn Aikido,a crazy martial arts which i do not even like at all.in my interests,other than sports and personal building,i like martial arts like Muay Thai,JKD,Wing Chun and Ninjutsu.but there is no use even i like these martial arts,because after all my dad is not agreeable of me taking these martial arts as he is brainwashed by my uncle.seeing the moves from Aikido,i think that it is not realistic.the moves are just like coordination from the coaches and the students.when i see my interests,they are even better and they can defeat Aikido as they are evil and ruthless in their moves.to me,if i am forced to learn something against me,i will not be able to learn well due to the fact that i am not interested at all.it is just like calling me to love somebody who i do not even like at all.if i like a girl,i will give her my whole heart and treat her as my own.but i think this is not going to happen......

the cookery day was very fun but tiring...

2008-11-08T23:23:00.000+08:00

today morning,i woke up very early in the morning to go for the cookery class with my mother.we were actually sent by my dad as he was on his way to work.the day was actually very bored as i woke up from slumberland.my mind was in the mood of playing and love.however,there is nobody who love me that is why i did not even dare to dream of love.in the life of mine,love is actually not a toture but a blessing.many people choose to believe that love is a burden as we have to spend lots of time to care for each other.to me,nothing is more important than love after my interest.as i was in the cookery class,listening to the lectures,i was very bored but quite amazed by the cooking style of the food.it seems very easy to cook with their products but it is never easy to do things ourselves.after attending the cookery class,my mother and i went to bugis to attend another cookery class.soon,we left the industry estate and headed to bugis.when we are heading out,we were very hot and sweaty as the scorching sun was burning us up.my mother was very tired and weak after walking for some time.the cookery class in bugis was very interesting.the promoter was very entertaining and interesting due to the fact that he is actually cooking and answering the enquiries of the aunties.at the beginning,i find that the aunties were very bad as they kept disturbing the promoter.after series of explanation,they are actually communicating in this way as they want to bring laughter to themselves.it is all the kind of funny imagination which came to my mind.the food which was cooked was just like the kind which was cooked by the chef.having to cook such a good food,it is never easy.i was actually fasinated by the effect of the cooking utensils.living for 17 years,i have never seen such a good wok which can cook almost every good food.in my view,it seems possible as it can never happen in this way.after that, my mother and i went to little india to distribute flyers into the letter post.it is very tiring for my mum as she was having a gastric pain for some reasons.in the end,most of the flyers were slot into the letter post by me.my fate with indians seems to be for a lifetime.nothing has ever come to my mind about the love from different races.in my mind,the love between both parties is more important than the race.if everybody are going to restrict themselves just because of different races,love will become a torture.in other words,the love will become a burden.i am totally aware that chinese girls have some kind of communication gap when they are together with me.however,it does happen to me when i mixed with other races' girls.i suspect that i am like a freak indeed but i am still unable to change the fate of my life.if life for me is going to be destined in this way,i have to accept my fate.the most important thing is still the love between us as i hate to restrict myself.after attending MindChamps last year,my life is totally changed as i became even more crazier than before.i believed that everybody would agree with me from their observation of my behaviour.the reason of me developing such a character is because i have totally step out of my comfort zone to bond with different kinds of friends and races,especially with indians.i dare to even say that my bonding with indians is stronger than chinese and malays.some indians got motivated by me and some hated me as they found me irritating.in my opinion,they are not able to change my freedom in learning as i am controlling my life,not them.i may be successful in stepping out of my comfort zone to socialise with friends but there are still some problems with me.whenever i talk to the girls,my mood is always affected,especially towards some quiet indian girls.i have a kind of mentality that i will become shy and even blushed in front of them.this kind of problem is always happening to me since i started talking to girls.i even felt bad when my expression to them was very blunt.i just hope that they will not blame me for that..i just wished that i have not given them the wrong idea as i am born to have this kind of weird expressions..

i have an overview of china martial arts..very impressed..

2008-11-07T23:54:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a long day.i went swimming in the afternoon with my friend,Wan Hao.it was indeed very long as we spent most of our time playing and sliding as we have nothing better to do.after sliding and playing,we went to the wave pool and play.the wave was indeed very strong but not so strong that i will fly off.my friend was there playing a fool as he jump and follow the wave with his hands shaking as the water moves.the day was passing very slow as we spent lots of time at other sides of the swimming complex.the time we spent to swim in the deep pool was lesser but it was very tiring and painful.i kept on using the breaststroke to swim due to the fact that i have lost touch other swimming styles.to me,the breststroke is the only style which i am very confident in.as we swim for laps,i kept stopping for a rest after swimming to the other side of the pool.however,after i got used to it,the whole feeling of exhaustion is gone.my stamina is revived again after losing touch in vigorous training.my whole body became lighter as i swim continuously.the feeling of being light is extremely wonderful although there was much pressure while swimming.my ear was even blocked when i swim.when i got home,i was totally tired.my strength was drained but my stamina was alive.soon,i sat down and reflect on myself.at that moment,i was wondering what kind of body level i am in.today,i became famous to many indian construction workers.i stood at the security post and talking to the auntie and uncle.they were just like friends to me.in fact,anybody can be my friend as long as they do not look down on me.while we were talking,Mr Rao passed through the security post and started telling Harry Potter Stories.he was very impressed with my interest for Shah Rukh Khan.he told the security guards about my passion in indian culture and they started conversing with each other.at there,the security guards were not the only friendly people.the indian construction workers were also very friendly although they look like introverts.i was being promoted to the workers by the security guards that i can sing and converse in tamil.they were shocked to see a chinese person learning tamil.they even ask me to sing as i was idling around that area.to my limits and knowledge,i sang loosu penne.when they listen to my singing,their eyes became big and they were stunned.this was because the way i have sang was so fluent and nice that it sound like a tamil singing the song.most of them there said that my future wife is definitely going to be an indian.i do not find it surprising due to the fact that i have heard it for at least a thousand times.sometimes,i do not even know why i am born as a chinese.the kind of life which i am leading now do not even look like what a chinese guy is leading.the fact of me being a chinese is really a remorseful thing but i have to accept the fact that i am really a chinese.to me,i am no longer concern about the kind of race i am in.even if i am going to marry an indian girl,i am not surprised anymore.this is all about fate.i cannot simply go against the Heaven's will because i know my life is predestined.love is not about looking at the race or culture of a person.on the contrary,it is more of the fate between both parties.developing this kind of stiff body may be a worry to me but i am going to find methods to loosen it.nowadays,martial arts became an interest to me.learning martial arts is indeed a good thing for me but i am only suited to learn Chinese martial arts.coming to this topic,my dad and i were actually quarelling over this issue for many days.he wants me to learn either Jiujitsu or Aikido,which is more of handlocks and throwing people to the ground.normally this kind of martial arts will not last long due to the fact that our backbones injured after series of falling down.my father insisted that this kind of martial arts will last forever when it is not possible.in reality,my body is not suited for this kind of locks,slamming or even external attacks with very hard impacts.based on my friend's judgement,my body is the boxer kind of body and i am more suited to learn something which is more to direct attack.this martial arts is none other than Wing Chun.in my mind,Wing Chun has been always the martial arts which i am really interested in.however,interests does not persuade my father to enrol me for the classes.this also means that Wing Chun is useless in his eyes.i am very addicted to learn the attacks and defense from Wing Chun as it is very ruthless but my father forbid me from joining.instead i can only join something which i am not interested in and i will not do well in.there are many reasons for me wanting to enrol for Wing Chun.firstly,i want to lead a life like Bruce Lee.his first martial arts is actually Wing Chun before he excel in others.Secondly,Wing Chun is very aggressive when it comes to attacks.even a Muay Thai person can lose to a Wing Chun person.many reasons are still rotating in my mind.if i am going to take up something which do not even interest me at all,it is as good as not learning anything.in fact,the logic is the same when it comes to love.if i love a girl,my heart will always be thinking of her without fail,even if she breaks my heart.on the contrary,if i do not even like at all,will i even think of her for all the time?the logic is actually the same,just that it is situated in a different thing.my father objects but my mother have nothing to say because she knows that it is still me learning the martial arts,not her.

today is a day of misery and yesterday is a tiring day..

2008-11-06T00:33:00.000+08:00

yesterday was indeed a torturing day as i see stars when my teacher explained to me the steps to do a good news writing..upon her explanations,i was very blur and i felt like sleeping due to the fact that i have not rest enough the day before and my head was totally stiff.when she was explaining to Wan Hao,i was there listening and also feeling very confused.to me,i was like not thinking things in an easy way.i was so stressed and confused that i approach the security post to chat with the security uncle and auntie.they were feeling bored and tired as they are always stationed at the post.sometimes,they would have to patrol around the school and check the environment.as i reached the post,the uncle was actually building a chair with wooden planks.i helped him to hit the nails into the chair.after finishing the nailing,i tested it out.the whole chair was very durable and it is very stable.i was very happy as this was my first attempt on doing such stuffs.in fact,i was never good at all these things as i was not very well-trained.however,i am a very kinesthetic person.anything that has to do with movements will be an interest to me as my body is developed in this manner.there is no way i can change my body genre as i was born like that.coming to think of the nails and the unused wooden plank,i took them and knocked it into the tree,forming a target for hitting.when i was helping Mr Rao to carry the things to the new staffroom,i entered the office without anybody's permission.in the end,i was scolded not by Mr Rao but it was Mrs Tan.i was demoralised at that point of time but i could not help it..after moving the stuffs to the new staffroom,Mr Rao told me Harry Potter stories which i am sick of listening but i could not reject listening his stories.otherwise,he will break my bones and show me my ligaments.it was quite a sad thing to see myself leaving this school although i have an urge to learn new things in the polytecnic.it is never the school which i missed,it is the friends which i have made and the teachers who had taught me lifeskills,like Mr Rao.listening to his Harry Potter stories is indeed a tragedy,but it is always a good thing for him to enlighten my mind and bring me to a new life.i have never regretted having such a teacher as i developed a funny character like him.today,i came very early to school to take my chinese exam.in the beginning,i was not in the state of confidence.i was very nervous and i could not even calm my mind.however,i used the breathing techniques taught by my dad for quite a short while,my mind was relaxed.upon taking the exam,i was on tenterhooks.my mind was stuck for quite a short while before i even started writing.in my mind,i was telling myself that i can do it.to my self-motivation,i wrote everything with my might.my mind was relaxed after the exams.as i was walking home,everybody was showing their freedom as they shouted and expressed their feelings to their friends..for me,there is no need because i do not think there is a need to do so.moreover,i am a very shy person although i am very outgoing.doing this kind of thing is absolutely not for me...

today is both sad and happy..

2008-10-31T22:29:00.000+08:00

today is indeed a twist and turn day for me..as i was taking the 1st paper in the morning,i was stunned by the fact that the paper is difficult and i could not solve much problems.the examiner is really testing the limits of every students.i was in the exma hall racking my mind to do all the questions.it was indeed a killer this year to take the O levels.to many people,last year seems to be the easiest as they thought there is nothing much to be tested.on the contrary,it was not like what they have thought in their mind.my conscious mind and sub-conscious mind was both haywired while i do the 1st paper.the feeling of doing the paper is absolutely making me demoralised.after the 1st paper,everybody came out with a sulky look on their face.even i was not in the mood to study for the next paper but i acted to be happy.to me,happy appearance does not mean that a person is really happy.there is surely some loop-holes in his expressions when he talk to a person.to find loop-holes in me,it is never easy.having a happy look,even i may be burning in my heart,nobody can understand my feelings.when i took the next paper,i was praying to god.after opening the paper,it was less expected that it is easier than the 1st paper.i was doing everything very cautiously as i do not wish to slip any chances.after the exams,i was much more relieved due to the fact that there is lesser to study for next week.at least,i can rest in the weekends for about half a day and study the whole day.in the burning afternoon,i met up with my friend to spar in terms of boxing.it was a very serious match as i have not sparred for a long time.however,i punched the bag almost everyday in my house.upon sparring,i kept dodging when he attacks.it was very difficult to dodge but he was tired attcking me.when i hit him,he was like trying to counter me.however,nobody is really powerful.in the match,i threw a punch to his jaw and the neck which is the more vital areas.he was not very injured as the blow was not heavy.however,the blow on the jaw lead him to a headache through some kinds of nerve system.he said that the pain is not on the jaw but it is in the head.i think most probably my punches is not injuring the external area but the internal area.he was injured quite badly in the head while i was alright.from there i learnt something,everytime i sparred,there is sure to be some injuries for my opponent.maybe,my right arm is really a killer arm.my left arm is only for tricks.after the talking of Rao yesterday,i went through thinking of his enlightenment as it was about acting.i was really impressed by their wealth and fame but is acting for me?maybe,because i am a person who cannot stop moving.acting in singapore is easy for me,but if i were to act in tamil movies,will i act well?it is very hard to express through dancing and acting in the same movie.i know tamil movies is not easy to act.if i can act in tamil movies,nothing will be difficult.it is all about stepping out of my comfort zone.i am not good in expressing myself but i am better through actions.most probably,the kind of movies for me is the fighting kinds.anyway,it is not surprsing for me to act in the fighting movies due to the fact that my body is built to be like that.

studying the whole day seems like nothing is being absorbed...

2008-10-28T18:41:00.004+08:00

as i woke up from my bed,it was around 7am in the morning.i began washing up myself and took my father's car to school as he send me.once i reached the school,i headed straight to look for my chinese teacher and passed him the compositions which i wanted him to mark.unfortunately,he was like a big businessman and he have no time to mark my papers.i went to studymy Physics for tomorrow's paper. after studying in the morning,i was quite amazed by the teaching of the Pure Science students.for the first time,i was taught by the top student and i found it hard to understand due to the fact that her explanation was very hard to be understood.immediately,i asked her to explain again.indeed,patience was losng out after repeated explanation.she became confused as i was a slow learner.however,i got the idea and the picture after explaining the third time.to me,studying was like a kind of torture as i was not the state of remembering lots of concept.in fact,i hated studying more than anything in my life but i have to accept my fate and suffer one shot.i think nobody would like to lead a torturing life in my class.having to study is indeed toturing but life still has to go on.i cannot just simply give up due to the fact that there are many difficulties in my life.if i am going to have this kind of life forever,i will burst out of tears. after O levels,most of the people will be looking for boyfriends and girlfriends in my class.on the contrary,i will not look for a girlfriend yet as i want to reserve myself to mix with more friends.having this kind of character,i do not wish to see my friends forgetting me after i am admitted into the polytechnic.if i am going to leave them,my heart will not be feeling well.although i may be living in luxury,but my heart is not feeling well.giving my heart to a girl is my dream but i know that is too early for me.i am just going to stay in a low profile after i leave for polytechnic..

studying the whole day seems like nothing is being absorbed...

2008-10-28T18:41:00.001+08:00

everyday seems to be bored although exams are coming to an end..

2008-10-27T18:32:00.000+08:00

having to study for O levels is a torture due to the fact that the time passes very fast each day.i do not deny the fact that i cannot concentrate well as my state was not in the anger condition.just studying itself is like no life to me.in fact,i do not think my friends like to stay in this manner for every single day.seeing the exam papers makes me nervous as a chill went down my spine.i hate this kind of feeling but i have to accept the fact that i am taking a very serious and idiotic paper.nobody in my school likes exams at all.if a person says he loves examination,then there is something wrong with him.studying a lot makes me brain-dead.yesterday,i was studying my physics and my POA.unfortunately,i could not get into the serious state of studying peacefully and steadily.my life was like just proceeding fast without any progress.to me,living is just like dead.i may be living in the world,but my heart and soul has ran to the other parts on earth.if i am able to retrieve them back,i do not know how i can do it too.i was awake till 3am in the morning yesterday and i was reading my storybook after studying POA and chinese.the kind of life is repeating every single day and i got bored over it.if this kind of lifestyle is going to continue,i am just afraid that i cannot live up till the end of my life.today is deepavali.every indians are celebrating them in their relatives' house.being a chinese related to indian,i am receiving funny messages from my director,Eric.he wishes me happy deepavali and told me not to touch the round objects as they will explode when we touched them.upon seeing to that kind of messages,i felt kind of offended when i first received the message.however,i know that he was joking,so i treated it lightly.many people see me as a racist guy due to the fact that i have speaked tamil for many years and scold some tamil students as they have offended me in some manner.in school,tamil teachers have always praised me in front of tamil students and i was like a superstar in the school.in fact,i was in their good books after picking up tamils although my tamil was not very strong.now,i am learning some tamil songs to win some people's favour.i know it may not be possible to prove my talents to tamil girls but i know it is not possible.having a tamil knowledge for so many years,i am not surprised to have more tamil friends than chinese friends.i am very aware that some of them treated me badly due to the fact that i am like a crazy mad person in their eyes.however,some tamil girls have a good impression on me as i was like a motivator.to me,it is not a surprise anymore.i have attended MindChamps for a long period last year and graduated at the end of the year.nothing seems to restrict me in school or any other places.i am used to this kind of lifestyle even before i went into the course.in fact,tamil language was picked up by me at the age of Secondary 2.now,it is holidays.i know everybody is getting crazy over the holidays as they are meeting friends almost every single day.i am not surprised to see the change of their outlooks as they are seeing girlfriends and boyfriends.Rao will be seeing his girlfriend in primary school in this period as he is always boasting to the whole class about it.being his student,i am always played by his nonsense.in fact,he is always treating me as a toy as he always call me to wait for my girlfriend in primary school.it is not 1 time,but many times.however,i enjoyed being his student as he is a great joker to me and changed my life.if i am going to leave the school for good,i am just afraid that he will have no jokes to share in the future...

today is indeed a long day...

2008-10-25T23:20:00.000+08:00

when i woke up in the morning,i was very much tired and restless due to the fact that i have rested for overtime and i slept late in the night.after a long day of studying in my sister's room,i felt very much stress and i was not in the state of studying.i was feeling very tired after i woke up..having much to stress,i was not able to do many revisions.upon thinking of yesterday's life,i was quite messed up in exams as my feelings was very unstable.when i was taking the maths paper,my head was in a whirl and i was quite unconcious.before the exams,my friend,Wee Meng,told me to keep my cool when i see the paper and handle all the easy questions.however,i was very harsh when i see the paper.as i started doing the paper,my heart was thumping very fast and i was breathing very heavily.i came to a decision to think of other happy memories to keep my cool.it was not so effective but it lessen the burden in my mind as my mind was in some other places for a short period.i did all the easy questions in a fast manner as i wanted to save more time to do the difficult questions.with me,constantly solving the easy questions,my brain was slowly warm-up.after exam,i felt relieved as i was out of the exam world and in my crazy lifestyle.upon wandering around in school,i was asked to act for the media and broadcasting company as they want to win some awards for themselves.Zulaikha and Ashini was very eager to call me act in the role of being a tourist.as i was being shot in the video camera,i was very shy and unable to act naturally in this role due to the fact that i was very shy and it was my first time being a short film actor.facing the video camera reminds me of the short film actor,Murali.Murali was an actor in many short film and became famous from his success.this was all because of my Director who took him in suspense.Eric took lots of video for Murali and made him the main actor of every video.everybody burst out in laughter after watching his hilarious roles.i am extremely crazy after watcing all the funy roles played by Murali.as the holidays are in process,the school became as quiet as a cemetry where dead people lives.i was very amazed to see so the school in such a peaceful state although i was not used to this manner.when i thought of the departure of this school,i could not bear to leave.coming to think of the friends and girls i have been closed to,my relationship with them is not as simple at all.others were wanting to leave this school as fast as possible,but i was very different from them.i treasure friendship more than anything in life.i am a very emotional person and i am greatly affected in this kind of things.i could tolerate such blows if i were to leave the indian committee as i am very well-known to a majority of them.hitting the punching back could never bring the pain or stress off my head.i know this is for life.my life is really destined to be with indians and i can predict that my future wife will be an indian.it is just that i have not seen an indian girl who really fancy me.being a kinesthetic person,it is quite impossible to find a suitable indian girl for my own belief.i may have like indian girls before,but i know they would not like me as my character does not suit them at all.however,being with indians is really my choice in life.if i am given a choice to be with a group of chinese,malays and indians.i would choose indians without any hesitation.

oh!god save the country..O levels are toturing and confusing..

2008-10-24T21:16:00.000+08:00

as the days passes,my life is getting to become as still as a freezing ice..i see the upcoming O levels examination as a war and i am very scared of these kinds of major examinations..upon seeing these happening,my heart starts to shiver..however,i faced every exams with courage and i am still able to keep myself in control..it is quite sad to say that this is my last year in the school and i will be going to poly next year with a brand new life..very sad to see the departure of me..however,in poly,i am able to build up my confidence to pursue for my dreams.i just hope that everything takes place smoothly.i do not want to be a good-for nothing as i believed that everybody has a weakness and a strong point..i do not believe that everybody will be despise for life.having an adventurous and sporting character,i am actually a very kinesthetic person.which also means that i cannot sit still for a single second.if i sit still for long,chances of me falling asleep is very high.yesterday was the last day of school for every single students.Thassin was very sad as she talked to me at the 2nd storey where i kicked the walls.she was very shocked that the walls vibrate as i kicked them.i did not know that i have such impacts on my legs to kick a hard object.normally,when i punched punching bag,everything in my surrounding area was virbrating badly,especially the windows were shaking quite badly.even the doors of my mother's room was shaking when my father closed the door to have a short nap.it is quite scary to obtain big powers.upon seeing the surroundings in the school,everybody was going mad as they destroyed tables and chairs.i was shocked when i see these scenes and thought of World War 2 as it shows a resemblence.after that,i went for my geography exam.seeing this kind of questions are sick for me.i did every questions with patience as i apply the ongoing things happening in singapore for the tourism questions.after the exams,i went to the security guard post to chat with the security guards.both aunty and uncle are equally bored as it was raining quite heavily and they are stucked in the shelter.to keep their boredom away,i talked to them and even joked with them..seeing them laugh and sharing my stories,i felt relieved in my heart and they are happier than before.we kept talking about the legend of Bruce Lee and Muhammad Ali as they were the great leaders of their interests.the uncle said that i have the looks and actions which resemble Bruce Lee.i do not know how true it is but he said it with lots of power.maybe,my life is destined to become the next Bruce Lee or i am a reincarnation of him.after that,i went to carve my name on the tree.it was very obvious to see my name on the tree after serious carvings were made.the security guards were very impressed to see the name.they even said that the spirit of the tree will haunt me in my dreams.however it was just a joke that they played on me which is not happening to me.i went to the toilet after carving the tree as my hands were stained.as i finished washing my stained hands,i overheard an idiot by the name of Terry,badmouthing me.i turned back and listen to his craps.i was very boiled and i scolded him due to the fact that he scolded me crazy when i did not even offend him at all.he was laughing at me and telling me this.i retaliate as i scolded him back.he was even more crazy this time,he scold me and pull my mother into the picture asuming that my mother is crazy.i told him that he is incurable in the society even though he was not listening much.where can a person scold another person crazy for no reason?worst of all,he sounded serious in scolding me when he do not even have the rights to lecture me.after all,it is my life that i am living with,not under his name.he do not even know that he is offending a wrong person.he can throw 3 punches to me without any injuries on my body due to the fact that he do not have any power at all.his punches do not even have a power of 1kg.even how many punches are made,it is just like massage to me.if i am going to throw 1 right-hand punch,i am very sure that his internal organs will start to bleed.when it comes to the 2nd right-hand punch,his bones will start giving way and nerves will start to disconnect.when the 3rd right-hand punch land on him,he will be send to the hospital without any queries.sometimes,it is not the kinds of training which develops great strength.on the contrary,it is the strong hatred towards an enemy or a belief to obtain such powers with a strong mind.i do not deny the fact that Terry has bigger biceps compared to me.but what he has is just an image which is just not worth in value.it is always the power and the stamina which interest everybody more.i can even say that Terry will lose out to me in performance.his pull-ups will not even reached the limits of 10 repetitions,2.4km will not even reached the limit of 10 mins,sit-up will not even reached the standard of 45 per minute and other stations will not even win me at all.having a training background,my limits are boundless.i do not trained strength on my lower body but i developed great power on my hands,especially the wings.i can do 17 pull-ups in a shot,100 sit-ups in a shot,having a 7min range for 2.4km test which seem quite impossible with my appearance but it is the internal organs which helped me and push-ups at 60 repetitions in a minute.i do these with special techniques taught by my beloved dad.whereas,what he learned takes decade to develop my performance.in sec3,i was once whacked by him as i scolded him back.he said that i am a gay on a fine day.i was extremely offended as i know he is not in a joking state.to my anger,i scolded him back.on the next morning,he appeared and whacked me on the temple[the most vulnerable area of the head].there was no pain at all after being whacked by him.however,i am disciplined and i did not fight back.now,if i am going to fight with him,the very least is that he will have internal injuries and maybe some bones fractured because my strength and my mindpower is strong.i can even whacked him to his death-bed if i want to.however,i do not want to go to jail and dirty my hands over people who do not know how to even fight.he still boast around saying that he carried 10kg weights when he do not even have a 10kg strength.i am carrying 5kg weights to do bench-press,yet my punches are even heavier than 5kg.i do not rely on strength,but on stamina.he may attack me with great power,but a human will always move unlike a punching bag which always swing.nowadays,my life gets miserable.coming to think of my fate,i think i am really fated to be marrying an indian girl.i am not surprised or looking down on that fact.given my crazy attittude,anything can be made possible.if such circumstances happened,i have to follow my heart and accept them.after all,regardless of indian,chinese or malay girls,all of them are also human with red blood.only thing that they are different from each other is the culture and their character.

inspiration comes into Eric's mind just like that...

2008-09-24T21:50:00.000+08:00

yesterday,i went to catch a movie with my acting company at causeway point.the day was very hot and i sweat furiously after reaching the bus-stop to meet up with my friend.everything seems to be dark for me under the hot sun as i was wearing a pair of sunglasses.it was hard to even recognise me.when we reached the shopping mall,wan hao and i went to shop around before the others came.it was an eye-opener to watch movies with my friends,especially with an acting company.the director was quite late as he was held back for classes with his friends.wan hao and i waited for them to arrive and purchase the tickets.it was a long day waiting for them indeed.after purchasing the tickets,we went straight in to watch the movie"MaMa Mia".at the start,i was straining my neck but after a lowered my body,everything seems alright.the movie that we watched was very funny and comical like indian movies.every single actor and actresses have dance and sing along like nobody's business.i think that this show was a very great idea for Eric to improve on his directing skills.while watching the movie,he was right beside me.he was drinking water like nobody's business.after a short period,he has an urge to visit the toilet and he finds a company.unfortunately,everybody has no sense of urge to go to the toilet.he remain seated at his seat and hold his bladder.everybody was laughing yet he was there sitting with great tolerance.when the show ended,Eric blasted off his seat and headed for the toilet immediately.every single one of us escorted him to the toilet as he was our director.after going to the toilet,we went to eat our dinner.everybody was roaming around,wondering what to order as they felt lost.sitting on the tables,we discussed about the acting and directing of our year-end movie.i will be the main actor of the movie but the other roles are not confirm yet.today is a day of sorrow.i have been pranked by a few idiots in my class.i was damn angry with them as they are too much.they had given me lots of troubles even though i did not even talk to them.they called me nicknames and backstabbed me.i was very furious but i tolerated as i do not want to get my hands stained over such people.these people are also not worthy enough to be my opponents.they dare to write and backstab me,but they do not dare to say it right in front of me.these people have no guts and they are not aware that they have offended the wrong person.i am not a vulnerable person neither am i a incorrigible person.taking a fight on these few people seems more easy than anything.but i do not wish to get into fights as i have vowed before .everyday seems to be passing fast and my mind seems to be getting into serious concussions.this kind of pain is only existing in the major exam period.it is very hard to experience this kind of pain.even punching a punching bag will not relieve the pain in my mind.

i am hitting the roof over a particular person in my class..

2008-09-06T00:59:00.000+08:00

these few day or even weeks,the seven idiotic freaks have been continuously writing to me some kind of junk comments.having to see these junk comments,i am starting rage in my heart.in the past,they said i am a gay due to the fact that i am actually having a small body without any good strength.however,my physical body was even stronger than what they thought at that time.these people are obviously looking for troubles.although my strength was not that powerful but i know that my stamina is sure to be even more superior than theirs.just seeing my size is no use.they did not even know that my training was actually taught by my father.i do not deny the fact that i have muscles on my stomach as i focused a lot on training my stomach.what my dad had taught me was actually to prepare me for army.i developed 8 protruding abdominals in approximately 3 months.entering secondary school was not suited for me to study more,but to excel more in sports and learn more about personal lives.at the age of seondary 1,i was always seen in the basketball court in the evening.playing basketball was a pleasure to me after i played every single day regardless of rain and shine.at the age of secondary two,i was being taught by my father to train up to prepare for army.sportsmanship is just slowly appearing in my mind after training for years.i was also playing basktball very frequently to strengthen my body.when i saw the seven idiots in my secondary 3 class,i was actually bullied by them and even humilated.i just cannot stand the way they had played me.now,they are actually trying to bring troubles to me again.they are asking for a history to be repeated over again.they are even calling me a dog this time.i am going to scold him back till he is fed up and show his weak hands to me.even 7 toys are going to take me on at a time,i am also not scared because all of them will land up in somewhere in their dreamland.i am not interested to talk about something which will make me angry,let me change subject.after studying for so many days,my life-span seems to be shorten.i thought that decades have just passed when it is actually in my wish.studying makes me dead.yesterday,i was doing a maths mock exam.some questions turned out to be easy but difficult to solve.i gave up in the midst of time when my head was whirled.after being marked by Ms Yap for my english composition for the Youth Olympic Group yesterday,my marks were actually shocking to me.never in a time did i get 23/30 for writing sports topic for my composition.being corrected now,i am very motivated to write more compositions now.i am going to increase my language during this short period and make a mark for my O levels.i may not be a good student but i believe my hard works will definitely prove everybody my glory.holidays are coming to an end,i just hope that everybody have started revising for their coming exams..

mock exams coming my way..

2008-09-04T19:17:00.001+08:00

in the holidays,it seems like i am returning to school for many days.my heart start to sink when mock exams are happening because my brain was not active in studying.i think it has been months which i did not really put in efforts in my studies.however,my english is making much progress but other subjects just flock without any notice.i am having a hard time studying for my subjects.nowadays,lots of misunderstandings are happening to me and my classmates.my classmates are mocking at me.i do not refer to those quiet ones but the seven freaks.being a ordinary person,i am very scared that i will run into troubles.i am not scared of them fighting with me.i am willing to take any challenge anytime but i do not want to fight with somebody who does not have any power or do not know how to even fight at all.fighting with these people will only be a disadvantage to me because i will dirty my hands for no reason.if i am going to fight,i am actually going against myself because i vowed that i will not get into illegal fights.worst,my father will hit the roof.having to train so many years,if he knows that i used my power to fight,he will scold me upside down.what i train on my punching bag is to develop big power and stamina.what i have train for the past few years was to develop my performance and stamina.pursuing for a sportsman is my dream but acting is my second career.this means i am going to act and pursue in sports at the same time.i hope this will become my career and nothing will stop me..

there is no meaning in life..

2008-09-02T18:40:00.000+08:00

a few days ago,a group of seven freaks came to my friendster account and created a havoc by writing lots of rubbish comments to me.having to look at the comments they wrote,i was hitting the roof at that instance.they are obviously looking for troubles and indirectly challenging me.there is even one person among them telling me not to be proud by showing off my english skills,which i did not even show off.in fact,i came from a family where i always communicate in english that is why my english is much better than my chinese.what they said to me was just rubbish.in the eyes of mine,they are just seven freaks.terry wrote to me,telling me to walk in the streets without any shirt on.i was even angrier than before.i replied him,why not you try 1st before asking me to do it??their comments to me,was actually directly challenging me.even if they were,i am never afraid of taking challenges.if the seven of them are going to take me on,i will show them what was Bruce Lee like in the past.their punches are not powerful at all,even though they have some training on their bodies.i can only say that their training methods are totally wrong.terry,the simpleton,ever told me that he actually carry 10kg weights in his training.when i was punch by him in the past,his punch was not even 10 milligrams.the punch was more like tickle.i am just wondering how can he go round fighting with these kinds of weak punches..i trained for so long and i know that a person who take 10kg weights would not have this kind of power.in fact,i was only training on 5kg weights and i can even outbeat him without much difficulties.after training for so long,i have never seen a person training to bully others and even creating fights on the weaker people.upon seeing the way he threw punches to his opponents,i am just seeing something which will weaken my eyesight.a person who knows how to fight will never throw a hook on the opponent in the beginning of the fight.if he wants to pick a fight on me,i will never let him get his way.this is my true sportsman spirit after training for so many years.in fact,i have developed many skills after watching many martial art videos and Bruce Lee movies.actually,Bruce Lee was my idol and also a good example for me to learn.his body was the kind of body i was targetting for.he may not be a bodybuilder,but his fighting skills and his performance was perfect.unfortunately,he died early after over-exerting himself.if he is going to live longer,many will outbeaten by him.maybe,i will have the chance to even ask him to be my master.i was dreaming to act like the shows which he act.i am going to act with an actress who will be my real girlfriend.i believe the show will be a top hit in the world due to the fact that i am acting with my lover.having to act with my lover,i think that no jealousy would be involved as my lover will be proud of me.in the role of acting as an actor,i have a storyline in my mind.i will be acting as a role of hero saving an important person.from there,a girl who is my lover will be impressed through my actions and fell in love with me.from there,bad guys would target her.she will then be kidnapped by them.i would brave my life to fight with them in order to save her.through my actions,she will definitely be crazy in me...

my life is very stressed up and i am tired of living..

2008-08-26T19:01:00.000+08:00

having to face many mock exams recently gave me a lot of pressure.i hate the feeling of being pressurised.nowadays,i can feel that my studies are slowly deteoriating except english as i have did many practices in compositions.however,i am still very scared of the other subjects.my mind gave me a thinking that it is a disaster to study and it is really discouraging me to study.i am very sure studies will not bring me to anywhere in life because i hate to sit down and study on a subject for many hours.this is not the kind of life i wish to have.in my future career,i wish to excel in sports as it is really an important thing in my life.to some other people,sports is just for leisure and fun.in my point of view, sports can bring me to some where which i have been waiting for years.i was very upset that my family had discouraged me in taking sports as a career.as upst as i could be,i changed my mind.in my career,i am going to act,play sports and coach other weaker people on earth.playing sports will be my top priority as i always aimed to become a famous and charitable sportsman like Muhammad Ali.acting is my second top priority.my friend,Eric from 4E1 is very interested in directing movies for his career.i told him that if he wants to direct movies,i will be his acting in his movies.most probably,all the movies is about fighting or the lives of famous sportsman.he agreed to my request and he said he will definitely hire me in the future to be acting in the movies he direct.coaching is another priority in my life that i wish to achieve.having to mixed around with my friends,most of them are actually quite weak as they do not have a training background.being a trainer,i felt very helpless when my Cornetto team members could not even do a pull-up for their Nafa test.in looking all these,i learnt that training oneself is not really going to bring me a happy life or a successful person.helping others in need will definitely bring them out to be thankful towards me and i can learn some other life skills.training is not about taking minutes or seconds to devlop good performance.in fact,it take weeks and months to develop a good performance.one can never improve in just a fortnight.to improve to a higher standard of performance,it take years to develop.i may not be a very powerful person but i believe that training to have good performance take years.in my acting career,i wish to be acting in shows like fighting for the sake of a clan or a girl or maybe a country.in the scene of my fights,a girl would come to see my fight and cheer for me.at the end of my fight,she will hug me and say "i love you" to me.basically,my show is just like tamil movies where they squeeze fights and love show together.i will be the story-writer and my friend will direct my movies.i really hope the actress who is going to act with me will be my lover.if not she will be jealous to see me with other girls,which i do not wish to create a quarrel scene.it would be best to act with her to prevent something bad from happening.when i am really successful in Singapore,my director and i will go to Bollywood or Kollywood to act indian movies.from there,i will be the first chinese actor to act in indian movies.not only will i be famous,my director will also be famous.the life of mine will definitely be like Bruce Lee.i will get to act with many pretty and sexy indian actresses in my movies which i always dreamt of.my movies will definitely be love and fighting movies.in the fighting part,many opponents will come and disturb a girl.this girl has nobody to approach,so she came and find me.after finding me,i will take revenge for her.she will be very happy and confess to me about her feelings towards me after the fight.the storyline will be created by me and i will try my best to direct a movie if i can.before i can direct,i will learn the skills from my director.this does not mean that i direct and act forever without Eric.i just want to try things like Bruce Lee at my own risk.most of the movies will be directed by Eric and i will definitely be famous.just wait to see these things happening..by the way,support me when i become this kind of actor..

2008-08-24T00:34:00.000+08:00

i am very angry at you..
for what happen on friday..
i think you shud know..
>=(

~PiiNkY PiiE~

seems like this year is coming to an end soon..

2008-08-22T20:03:00.000+08:00

having to study in this school for so long,i am very excited to see the upcoming new development of the school which is going to happen very soon.i am very excited and also upset about my departure of the school at the end of this year.why do i say this?although i am a person who hates studying but i like to play and mix around the friend.some people might find me a crazy outgoing person who always disturb others.i am this kind of person from the way i develop myself.in my opinion,i believe one should express his or her feelings every time because that is actually our true feeling and i see no reason for us to express different feelings to other friends.i am one of the outspoken person in Cornetto but i am the most shy person in that team.even after joining the MindChamps,i will still restrict myself from some girls.i do not know why i am like that.maybe it is the kind of life i supposed to have actually.MindChamps is a place where shy people enter and crazy outgoing people born from there.this is because we were actually taught on how to step out of our comfort zone.i am happy to say that i truely overcame it but there is still some barriers when i see some girls.i am normally seen as a friendly person who goes round and greet people but when it comes to some girls,my behaviour changed totally.maybe,i am born to be a shy person in relationship.i am just wondering,if a girl is going to like me now, what will she do?i cannot be the one confessing because i am not brave enough in this kind of thing.hopefully,she will do the confession but i know deeply that she will be angry.after training for so long,i am finally having more more power in my body.my punches are getting stronger and i am developing killer punches.i think now have to study like hell so that i can pull through O levels.

tomorrow is going to be my presentation for O levels oral exam..

2008-08-19T18:38:00.000+08:00

upon seeing the time-table for my O levels exams,i saw that English oral exam is going to take place tomorrow.the time has come to a day for me to talk and i am really afraid of speaking out from my mind to the examiners.sometimes it is very scary to see them laughing or pulling a long face.we,as the O levels students have this kind of fear when we see the reactions of these examiners.when they smile at me,i can sense that maybe i am too good to be judge or i look comical in presenting myself to them.having to prepare this kind of exam,i believed that i am brave enough to face this people.having to talk about exams,i am very angry as studies is not really what i want to achieve in life.i know there is no use crying over something i hate because i know it is not worth.i think i should fight against studies and make sure i don't even repeat the same old thing again.i am very focused on studies now although i cannot catch up with the pace in class.being one of the weak students,i have to repeat my Mother Tongue O levels exam together with other subjects.although i know that my English Composition is always consistent in getting a mark ranging from 21-23marks.i know i can easily be one of the top in english if i am willing to be hardworking but it will turn me even more miserable.what i want to do now is to help my Cornetto singer who is weak in English Composition.today,i have finished a Composition on dreams and i even lend him my paper.this was the first time i help my friend as he helped me many times and i did not return his favour.it was very guilty to be this kind of person as i am actually owing him a lot of things.having to help people brings joy to me..

i think i am the only 1 left behind for studies..

2008-08-16T18:19:00.000+08:00

today morning,i woke up as early at 7pm to attend my maths remedial at 7.3oam.upon reaching my school,i am very scared of doing maths now.everyday,as i am doing maths,my brain seems to forget everything as i do each questions.the pressure in O levels is actually pushing me to forget many things which i can do without difficulty.facing O levels may not be something stressful for some people.after doing my revision in school,i noticed nothing was able to absorbed into my brain due to the fact that the pressure is actully getting rid of my knowledge.however,i am also deteoriating in studies as i do not have enough time to really sit down calmly and revise my work.this kind of life is totally stressing me and i tend to have my brain washed away.everything seems to be inactive for me.my studies may not be so good,but i know that if i study,i will improve gradually.in contrary,it turned out worse than what i have expected.being a student,i think that my pride is being degraded and i hate the feeling of this.whenever i come to deep thoughts in some work,i am unable to think quick and correct.the pressure had forced me to come to this stage which i am not likely to have noticed.even my maths teacher is worry about my studies.having problems in my studies,i think it would be best for me to face death calmly.i think my future career is more likely to be in the sports industry.i tend to be morepowerful in sports and i have a stronger will in sports as compared to studies.living in this society,who will be so eager to study so much?it is just ironic to hear people say that they love studying to their limits.even my sister said that she love studying,but did she pursue for her studies after she finish her Junior College?it is all a lie which she had fabricated.in appearance,she said she loves studying.but deep in her mind,is she having a strong will in studies or is she studying just for the sake of studying?most probably,she do not even like studying at all.to me,studying is all about hatred and force.who on earth would a person study forever?yes,a person may be studying a picture forever or even studying something they like forever,but is it in studies?it is all just craps to hear people saying"studies is fun"or even said"studies is my favourite".i can easily infer that this is not in their conscious mind at all.if they love studying so much,they will even be holding a funeral where people burn books for them.however,this kind of thing did not even happened before.if the person had such a strong will in life,i am really proud of him.in my opinion,exercise is the best.normally i can destressed myself easily with exercise.unfortunately,i am having much worries recently.no matter how serious i exercise,the stress is incurable.but i still believe that exercise is the cure to everything because it is my passion to train up.training makes a better person and it is actually turning me to become a serious and aggressive person when needed.most of the times,i am actually friendly and outgoing,this is because what i have trained up actually brought my character to develop in this way.basically,exercise is my passion.i am a totally addicted person in exercising.

headache is happening so frequently...

2008-08-15T22:06:00.000+08:00

having to study for the whole day is actually killing me.my body is not able to relax for a single moment because it belongs to the kinesthetic kind of body.i am never a perfect person as i have this kind of problems in my body.training for so many years actually boost my body to another kind of body which take challenges.my performance may be remaining at certain standard,but i believe it can still be improve if i put pressure on my body.i know this may not be good for my body,but my belief is strong and i can only look towards improvements,not deteoriation.if i am going to have my body undergoing deteoriation,i will never be happy in life.most of the times,i seemed to be happy and outgoing,but there are times when i feel very lonely.sometimes my look may reveal that i am happy,deep in my heart,it is actually very heartbroken as i have done something against myself.i am always quiet now as my whole mind is haywired. iam very sorry to those people who was shocked by my sudden change in character.this kind of lifestyle is never what i wanted.i am very dedicated to my good friends.i may not be very good when i am studying,but i have a strong interest in personal training. i am currently building up to be like Bruce Lee.his body is perfect in every angle although he over-exert himself and died in the early age of life.what a waste!or not i will get to watch his movies more often.his every move in fighting is perfect and fast.if i am able to develop a body like him,it would be perfect for me..

the things which i studied seems to be forgotten..

2008-08-14T19:09:00.000+08:00

as i reach school today,i was actually more tired than what i have expected to be.having a different kind of studying, i have found that my knowledge seems to get worsen.my performance in studies may not be as good as i thought.i am never surprised by the fact of my studies because my studies is never going smooth.my interests in personal training and sports is always moving as what i have expected.my punches is getting stronger each day as my strength is slowly developing.although my skills in boxing is not that good,but i have made an improvement when i sparred with my friend during the last sunday.however,my strength is making more progress than my skills.not to be surprise,my stamina is still the overall best performance in the sparring match.my strength may be improving,but it can never win my stamina because i have more serious trainings for my stamina.being a person who trained cardiovascular,i am never deprived from my endurance in serious long runs and sports like boxing and basketball.training is part and parcel of my life.i have developed much interest and even got addicted throughout the years.people who see me as weak are actually looking up on me now due to the fact that i have muscles on my body.everybody is actually praising me because of the 8 abdominals body i have on my body.i am not motivated as this was not my first time having all these praises.i believe these 8 abdominals body is built-in to my body for perfomance.today,my friend,Zul,the Cornetto beat-boxer was actually seeing my phone.as he look through the images of me,he made a comparison between me and Bruce Lee.he said that i have some areas which really resembled like Bruce Lee,espcially my abdominals.i was overjoyed as this was the first time people said that i resemble Bruce Lee.it was my peasure to have this kind of strong body like him as i believe he is a good example to me..

today was a bad day..

2008-08-11T21:07:00.000+08:00

after taking a long period of break from running,my body tend to react very differently from what i have expected.having a tough body does not mean that i am tough in everything,sometimes there are certain areas which i need to develop too.my body was largely restricted as my stride length was not as powerful as i thought.however,the spped range which i took to finish for 5 rounds of the park was exactly the same as before.i was still in the standard of my own.being so worried,i had always told myself to remain calm in any situation and just head straight for the ending point.yesterday,while i was finishing my run at the last straight line,a bicycle came in front of me.to test my limits,i tried to follow up with the bicycle's speed.i managed to catch up for quite a distance.however,at the last quarter,he went faster than i expected.the full power of a bicycle can never be overcome by a person easily.although i have trained stride length and constant speed for my jogging,i could not overcome the full-speed of a bicycle.it was sad indeed.however,i found it challenging with my legs competing against moving wheels.last friday,after the National Day,i had a day of exercising in the afternoon.i even sparred with my friend who was heavyweight after i finished my exercise.it was tiring indeed but quite fun as i persisted.in the midst of sparring,i was actually dodging every punch which my friend threw to me.he was quite tired with my movements which i did as he get me.after dodging for quite long,i attacked him as he was not so strong as before.at the last second,he gave me an upper-cut.unfortunately,he missed me as i was too fast in my reaction.i exchanged with him a hook as i threw to him. this hook which i threw landed on his left ear and his ear went numb instantly.immediately we stopped the match.he was terribly injured on his ear.however,he praised me saying that i am actually improving on both skills and strength.but the strength which i improved on is more than my skills.he even said that the punches which he took in has great impact on his body.the kind of punches was all trained by me.i did not even thought that my punches can injure a person badly.in the team of Cornetto,i am the most outspoken person as i talked a lot.the other 2 malay guys are quiet but 1 of them also go crazy with me.we love creating songs which have different lyrics from the original song.so far,we have managed to changed tamil songs and english songs.chinese songs were very hard to change as the tune do not go well with our created lyrics.however,i am still findig ways to change the chinese lyrics to english.if i could succeed in that,nothing is able to stop me.haha..

Happy National Day to everybody!!!

2008-08-09T18:54:00.000+08:00

today is National Day and also the start of the Olympics Day!!these days are going to be very crazy as many mad people will go to support in live..being not so enthusiastic,i am actually watching the television at home for the live performance.nowadays,the stress in my head is uncountable and i can say that i really changed a lot.i am now in the band of 3,named Cornetto.this band is formed last month as we named it ourselves.this band consists of 2 malays and 1 chinese.the beat-boxer is Zul,singer is Azhar and the all-in-one singer is me.quite funny,isn't it?we created lots of songs from other singers and destroyed the whole lyrics of every single song.i am the one who destroyed the most songs in my band as i was the most outspoken.though i may be outspoken,i am actually a reserved person in class.being in the class of naughty an talkative students,i tend to be more quiet in class as compared to mybehaviour with my external friends.nowadays,stress is pushing up and i am actually changing to an alien.my overall character does not fit into my well-being and i hate the feeling which does not fit me at all.i used to be more friendly in the past as i am totally crazy in making friends as i am used to my crazy lifestyle.being an out-going person,i am actually shy person especially when i see girls whom i like.so far,i am still unable to keep myself calm when i see a girl whom i like.normally,my whole face will turn red instantly when i go near her or even see her.this kind of feeling is terrible.how am i going to face a girl whom i like if i have this kind of shy look?will she run away from me?i am still pondering why is my face so red when i see somebody whom i like?i think my friends are different from me.they used to react differently from me.i am always the outspoken person among them,yet the most shy person among them.isn't it hilarious?when i see somebody whom i like,i have to run behind their back and hide.this is the kind of reaction i always have.this is always unavoidable..i wonder if there is any girl out there who likes me a not.if they are going to like me,i really don't know what to do..

2008-07-31T16:39:00.000+08:00

hey,dun waste ur time...bullies will alwaes exist..u cannot avoid them,u cannot eliminate them,but u can STOP them.how?
well,1st-dun mingle with them
2nd-ignore them,they usually lie,to make u scared
3rd-dun let them take advantage of u..

thats all i got..
bb!
~PiiNkY PiiE~

everyday seems to be very disastrous..

2008-07-29T18:45:00.000+08:00

yesterday,my mood was actually fine as i was quite happy.however,my hooligan classmate actually scold me that i am a gay.my mood turned bad instantly although i did not attack him.i went back to class and tell my friends those words he said to me.to them,they assumed that he was actually mentally crazy.i am also very angry but i hold my anger against him because i know that if i am going to whack him,i will definitely dirty my hands.most importantly,i will spoil my reputation to become a sportsman which i always dreamt of.my friends have ever fought with him badly as he started the trouble.however,they told me that his punches were not even strong at all.i always believe that a sportsman will not bring all kinds of faults to other people.this guy told me that he was actually training dumbbells weighing 10kg,doing push-ups,punching the punching bag and jogging.i find it hard to believe that he did all these kind of activities when he is actually having this kind of attitude.it is very common to see him getting into fights with other people.worst of all,he create lots of troubles and offended many innocent students.now,my friends see him as an enemy and i hate him to the core.he said he has a training background?it is all craps.nobody who trained will have this kind of attitude in causing troubles.he dare to offend me,so what?his fist is not even strong at all,his power is so weak and his fighting strategy is so weak..how can i believe that he had undergo trainings?he is just trying to use words to scare other people.luckily,he do not even dare to touch me or else i make sure he suffer worse than what he said to me.seeing this kind of person makes me sick and unhappy.if i am going to whack him,he will not land up in a good state,not even standing up properly.he wants to create troubles,that is his wish.but if he want to step on my toes,he will regret.i may not be a very patient person,but i am a good joker.some jokes are meant to make people laugh,but the kind of joke he played on me is totally ridiculous.if i am in other people's shoes,i have whacked him straight to the face.but i knew it is not worth hitting this kind of weak person...

study makes me stress..

2008-07-18T21:06:00.000+08:00

after studying for so many days,i felt that blood is shooting up to my head and i am going to burst out in my brain.basically,i am a guy who cannot study well or even think well when i do my work.even how hard i tried to put myself into study mood,i just could not remember what i did or even sleep well.being this kind of person does not even seem happy for me.exercise may keep the stress out of my mind but the stress is only out for a short while.i feel that kind of pressure always even though i may not have much homework to do.although my work may not be so much,but the pressure in my mind is keep on going and i cannot find any cure for it.i think this nightmare will only end after my O levels.this kind of lifestyle is really not suitable for me as i do not believe in doing so much studies to improve my character.i rather believe that sports is much better than studies.my sports dream may be very unrealistic as i want to become the next generation Muhammad Ali,but i believe that legends are still born up to today.studies is the only key to develop a good position for me in the future but can i ever remember everything which i studied for 11 years?well,i could only remember the good friends i have made and the staffs in the school for the most which i recognised or respected them.however,can we ever forget the kind of interest we have?most probably not unless it is a 3 min interest.i believe that great interests bring great success and fame.it may not be easy to obtain a good background but the interest in us motivate us to work towards our success.our mind keeps forcing us to work forward, which proved that we are able to make a mark.freedom is the kind of life which everybody wants.no fool would want to work the whole day without any freedom unless they are workaholics.i donot want to become a book-worm,it is not my kind of style at all..

Pssst..guess who?

2008-07-07T10:56:00.000+08:00

hi.
guess who i am?
i was feeling very bored
so i decided to come and spam your blog
hope you don't mind
hahahahaha

what a bad day,i had..

2008-06-16T21:57:00.000+08:00

when i was awake from my sleep in wonderland,it was already 12.10pm and i was in a rush because i have a lesson at 12.30pm with my maths teacher.i ate my breakfast and immediately rush off to school in a blast.i could not imagine how late i woke up when i actually set my alarm clock at such an early time.what a terrible feeling!this was actually not the first time i had this kind of problem,but happen several occassions already.i do not even know the main cause of this problem.many people do not have this kind of problem but i actually own one which i hate it.is there any problem with my sleeping habits?i wonder so.i will never have this kind of sleeping problem in the past.but why am i facing one in present?there is never a way for me to have this kind of problem.yesterday,i went to jog after my work-outs.the weather was pretty well alright although it seems as it was going to rain.it was merely a false alarm which gives me the hope to forgo my run.training makes a better person.i ran 10 rounds around the canal park which was 1.560km long per round.although my standard had drop quite a lot,i was very consistent that i want to gain back the kind of training attitude i had in the past.i am always serious in the past when it comes to exercises,but my studies just flock due to the fact that i hate studying.my hate for studies is much more as compare to the others.studies gave me a feeling that i am not capable in getting good results even i had put in tremendous effort in my work.this is not the kind of lifestyle i want at all.i want a success after my hardwork.what on earth is failure when actually put in lots of effort in my work?the repeated failure in my exams gave me less hope in my studies as i am always seeing the same kind of cycle happening.my life is all about perservering and attempting to success.failure never comes into my book.perhaps,there should never be a word as "failure".nobody will like to fail in his or her life.failure will make a person strive harder to clear his or her doubts.however,repeated failures give a person less hope or even hate in studying.although i am not a repeated person before,but i can truly understood how this people feel when they faced these kinds of situations.we should never be proud of what we are capable because that will only bring others to hate us.we must help others in terms of troubles so that we can actually learn some things from others.studies will never be in my good books because i never even learn to like it before.however i will learn to perservere in my studies and get rid of them as soon as possible.what is the use of studying so hard when the grade of yours turn out to be less than expected?i am never an over-confident person.many people are good in certain area,therefore they became proud at their strong area.i do not believe in these as this will affect my growth in performance.who will ever say himself strong?this will never happen.only people who looked highly on themselves have this kind of weird attitude.nobody on earth will say himself strong unless he is truly a proud person and really want attention from others.i will only train up for well-being towards my future and realistic career because i had dreamt of my career to be a sportsman and a personal trainer.this is the kind of life i want.i do not even wish to stay in the office for the whole day doing paper works which do not even suits me.what i want to pursue is a kinesthetic career because i am just like the ancient times of my grandfather who cannot sit still for hours at all.i understand that the world is changing so rapidly that many people are actually growing lazier than we expected from the past.however,there are still some hardworking people.my body is never tired of moving because it has undergo lots of cardiovascular activities.if i were to go under an office job,i will just dozed off and being sacked unknowingly.discovering talents at young ages is not easy as many of the people will only undergo puberty at certain ages.i discover my strong points after my father taught me some army trainings.although that was very little,i went on doing researches on exercises which can actually boost me up to a sportsman standard.i never think the best of me,but the worst of me gave me the power to improve myself.

today is a day of survival..

2008-06-14T21:50:00.000+08:00

after celebrating my uncle's birthday at Toa Payoh yesterday,i was filled up to the the brim of my stomach with excessive food.this was the kind of day which i had and i could hardly touch a food after 8.30pm as the bloated body i had made me uncomfortable.i kept walking after i finished my food and still have lots of discomforts.after eating for about 2 hours,my families took out their handphones and flaunt towards each other about the qualities of our handphones.i told my uncle about the advantages of each and every handphone brands.nowadays,modern people want the best things on earth to satisfy themselves.they used many short-cuts in order to gain or even reach their target.however,doing things with short-cuts is not something which i always seek for as this will give me a sense of unsatisfaction.i always believe in doing things happily and confidently.i will never do something which i am not capable of or not up to my standard.being an addicted person like me,there are always lots of troubles or problems happening on my body.if i do not exercise for 2-3 days,my body will show signs of sickness due to the fact that my body is not used to that kind of funny condition like other people.it is simply the kind of things which an addicted person will have if he do not do his way properly.many people always misconcept that addicted is not a good thing.however,i believe it is always a good thing as addicted people are usually more imaginative or even creative in doing things their own way.non-addicted people will not possess this kind of thoughts as they are not as interested or agressive as the addicted people.they will only learn new skills when they are taught by their trainers or even instructions.before i started training in the past,i was actually a very playful and ignorant child who cause lots of havoc with my friends.i started training after i was taught by my father.although he was not a very patient teacher,but i learnt things in my own way to make my training more vigorous.after learning all these,he stopped teaching me as i am growing and i am not supposed to take any weights.if i take weights,i am going to affect the growing height of mine.i did my exercise with lots of endurance everyday and almost every hour at the age of 14.this was never a good training as i developed lots of rashes at that age due to the fact that i have no background knowledge.however,i started training at the age of 15.i trained everyday without fail as i believe that i can endure longer if i trained this way.the trainings i did made me more discipline and more friendly towards my friends.most important of all,my manners improve and i became a more aggressive person when i take up challenges.the saying of"training makes a better person"is indeed a correct word to describe people who trained,especially vigorous people like me.i am never born as a perfect figure when i enter this world.instead i am a chubby person who do catwalks in the past and advertise for magazines.i only started to train at 15 with a proper timing.what i have trained throughout the years all goes into work.the kind of trainings i took are cardiovascular exercises which always come into great force and pressure when a person is weak.that is why my body does not even looked like a bodybuilder body.having a bodybuilder body is not perfect at all because the movements are all limited and there are many disadvantages which i hate it.now i have grown interest in Muay Thai,also known as Thai Boxing.i made up a point that i must surely learn it from my uncle.Muay Thai is the best martial art i ever seen with indirect hits on vital areas of the opponent's body.training in the gym can never be a better place compared to training at home or at the nature.this is a kind of misconception which everybody believe that training in the gym can make you a stronger person.however,this kind of training interval is seen as illegal to me.it is proven in appearance that bodybuilders are strong but are they actually as strong as marathorners when it comes to endurance event?the motive of us training is to develop a stronger heart and a better endurance in any kind of activity,but why is there people who are ignorant when they actually know the hazards.i can only conclude that these people who trained in the gym are people who do not really know how to train.who on earth will have equipments placed in an air-conditioned room?
this is extremely hazardous as it causes lots of injuries without any proper warm-up.i am very lucky to have an active father who taught me how to train,or else i would be training in the gym with wrong trainings and innocent money to be spent.the internal organs is always stronger than the external appearance of us to hold out.

life is unfair...

2008-06-06T21:32:00.000+08:00

after thinking and recollecting the past of my grandfather for the past few days,i still cannot get over the death of him.such a good person should never died in such a state.the good deeds that he had done,the love that he had shown to his wife and the good character that he had obtain really make me feel very remorseful for him.he may not be close with me in the past,but i can understand him for the past eight years after we have seperated.from then on,i visit him quite often.in my grandmother's funeral,i did not shed a tears as i was not very closed to her.however,that was a long time ago,when i was at the age of secondary one.life seems to be unfair for my grandfather.he is always a person with a good mind and character.he is the best person i ever seen in my whole family.life seems to be unfair for him..i just wish that he is living in luxury now in heaven.

past few days is a disaster..

2008-06-04T18:50:00.000+08:00

past few days ,many prayers and chanting was held at my grandfather's funeral.being the only grandchild in my family,i felt that i was like the third biggest character in the funeral.my responsibility was very high as i have to take care of lots of things.my father hired two workers to help out at the funeral.they clean up the area and even took care of my grandfather.they talk to me about their life experiences in their own countries.i heard their stories and i feel that they are less fortunate than me.however,i was interested in india as i want to buy the electronics there especially gaming products like PSP.this kind of products were said to be cheap in that country.being at the funeral makes me feel very bored as there was nothing much to do there.my paternal families went home very early like nobody's business and the job was all done by my family.worst still,we even stay up to 4am in the morning at the funeral.fortunately,my maternal families were here to attend the funeral and even accompanied us throughout the whole night until we go home.as we were all seated talking and entertaining ourselves,my uncles and my dad was playing cards.we share with our experiences like telling ghost stories from our experiences.while telling all these ghost stories,everybody was so awake as if they had just woke up from their sleep.listening to the ghost stories made my goosebumps stand even i was not really afraid of their stories.however all these stories were so scary to the person but not scary to everybody as everybody do not experience it.my maternal families were very supportive in my grandfather due to the fact that he is a person with charitable heart,loving-minded,capable person and reject rewards which are meant to be for him.with all these good things he had,i salute him down to the ground from the bottom of my heart.he may not be a very rich person or a very capable person but whatever he do,he did everything with his perfect best and did not even wish to be rewarded.these kind of person really gain a lot of attention from me although he do not come from a very well-off family but he is a very kind and understanding person,most importantly,he loves my grandmother a lot even she passed away long ago.when i was young i was babysitted,that is why i do not know much about my grandparents.however,i learnt that my grandfather did a lot of good things through his whole life,i respect him down to the ground.sportsmen with good character and good sportsmanship always gain my attention,giving me the hope to be well-built like them.however,the good deeds that he had done will never end as i am going to continue his work.upon learning all these,these gave me more motivation to pursue for sports career

so sad

2008-06-02T17:53:00.000+08:00

er..r u ok???
i mean u were at ur grandfather's funeral..i hope u r ok..
whn u come back from the funeral call me..
thanks!
and go my blog as well!
[www.piinkypiie-sam.blogspot.com]
~PiiNkY PiiE~

i m goin to kill u

2008-05-29T18:28:00.000+08:00

(this is sameen)
EEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!dun anyhow sae me la..i whr gt wan u and i whr gt sae wit the bottom of my heart!!!dun sae me leh..i angry at u liao..dun tok to u liao...u dun anyhow sae me...now u call me i wun tok to u oradi...i dun care!!i mean wad wud ruba sae????i dun wan her to be angry at me coz of u so..........goodbye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!u noe i can go into ur blog rite???i can even type the post!!!!!!wahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!xD

~PiiNkY PiiE~

today is a very bad day for me.

2008-05-29T17:43:00.000+08:00

today is a day of seeing stars.i go to school in a very bad condition,i kept sneezing like nobody business.i go to school in fear as i am very afraid of birthday stupid bashing.everybody think that bashing a person on his or her birthday.it is just a stupid thinking which everybody have.how i wish i can buy many sports products on this day.i hate the life of boredom as i will start seeing stars.everyday is a day of improving myself especially my studies need more improvements so that sameen will never get disappointed with me.she says that she support me even from the bottom of her heart.too bad,my grandfather is lying down in hospital due to the fact that he has some stomach problems.this grandfather is one of the funniest old folk i ever seen,but why is he having this kind of problems?what makes me find it weird is that he has a very healthy diet.he should not have this kind of problems at all.i feel very sad for my grandfather because he do not even looked as if he is a terrible person.seeing him so ill makes me feel very upset for him.why on earth will he have to go through these sufferings?and now sameen is very impatient because she wants me a lot,i have to go.see you guys in outer-space.bye...

hey its me sam

2008-05-29T17:25:00.000+08:00

hey!!its me,sameen(sam).here to wish u happy bdae!u think i 4gt ah..?anw,u r finally 17...wow..17..1 more year go NS liao..i noe u wan to be a sportsman..bt u noe if u study hard now,i noe u can achieve ur dream..GOOD LUCK!i noe right now for u studying may make u 'see stars' but if u wan a study tip,wad i do is i try to make wad i am studying 'more interesting'.that way i noe wad i am learning and i can rmb it..and it does not waste ur brain cells!try ur best in every exam,and reward urself for trying ur best.wadever the result,u noe that u hav tried ur best.if its not good enuf,work harder..and i noe u can succeed,anw,enuf about studies..juz wish u good luck in the 'o' level!and this year dun go and train so much..u need to study too..=)
i hope u succeed in all u do!and aft u leave GSS,dun 4gt me hor..!!!

~PiiNkY PiiE~
(aka sam)

nowadays,the weather is unpredictable..

2008-05-28T20:54:00.000+08:00

hi,i am finally back after a long day of remedials..
the remedials from day to evenings can take my breath away..
although studies was not always in my good books,but i will try my very best to strive for the best results which i can obtain in O Levels.will studying cause me to have brain-dead problems??most probably it will happen ,but i believe it happen only in excess and minimum intake.what do i mean by this?if one person is to study excessively like nobody's business,he is most probably killing his brain cells at the end of the day.this also means that he will not able to think fast or even react fast if he is given a task.minimum intake cause your brain to work much more slower.due to the lack of practice,he could not be able to provide any knowledge except playing knowledge.this is equivalent to seeing stars.nowadays,i see stars while practicing maths or even any subjects.seeing stars can never be a good thing because it is equal to knowing nothing.i do not wish to count "baa-baa black sheep" in any of my studies or subjects.basically,studies is just a stepping stone for me to enter a poly to take my dream course and enter the dream world of mine .i do not want to step into the wrong world and taking the wrong life-time career.i believe that there is always a time for retirement in career,but retirement in interest will never happen for me.i hate to see my dream career coming to a retirement state as i believe we must always be happy in our lives.interest can actually bring us what we want.it is just whether you have put in the effort in it.many people neglect their interest and take a career which they do not really like,but can they ever last long in that career?most probably,they take the career just because they want to earn big bucks or they believe that easy money is really happening.however,there is no free lunch in this world.those people who believe in having a free lunch in this world will get conned easily.i only believe that hard work pays every debt.nobody will suffer after going through a series of hard work.true legend sportsmen have a target in mind before even planning for their training to improve their weaknesses.

why is life so miserable??

2008-05-26T19:18:00.000+08:00

seeing so many days of examinations makes my mind see stars..
being a person who loves sports like me will come to many disadvantages in studies..
how i wish this nightmare will be gone in a minute later and i can go and take part in all kinds of sports activities to toughen my body to a sportsman body..
although i have already possessed a sportsman body,but i never think that i am a very tough person.i believe that there are still many stronger people among me..
i do not deny the fact that i hate studies but i still have no choice even i show my temper to everybody.from all the things i have learnt through my studies is just like studying for fun.
i do not even have the motivation to study at all even though i might look calm on my appearance.now i practice the MindChamps method of telling my friends that i love them,i think it calmed me down quite a lot.whenever i see words,i do not even feel like reading at all.why is the world so competitive nowadays..people are starving or even suffering in other poor countries,yet we are studying so much.how are we able to save them through the disasters??
is it true that studying can save their problems??
i do not even believe in this,not even professionals..
man-made can be avoided on earth but natural disasters can never be avoided..
poor me!people are suffering in other countries,yet our country is so lucky.
if i were to go to that kind of place,i can train myself on survival trainings..
anyway,i do not like to see disasters happening every where.
now is the holiday season.everybody is more likely to be celebrating with their friends..
i have to study day to night,be it maths or science,i will even see stars..
i hate it.everything in the holidays is all studies.i wonder students are prisoners or human-beings??

hi,i am back after a long time...

2008-03-10T21:09:00.000+08:00

hi,i am back after a long time..
i am now currently fighting for an 'O' level certificate..
i am in secondary 5 now..
the life is very stress and lots of things are needed fo me to catch up...
my frenz are all struggling also..
i feel tat it is very miserable studying..
how i wish this nightmare can end soon..
i aim tat exercise and sports can become my future career n my life..
my wish is to become as famous and as good as muhammad ali..
he is the correct example for sportsmen to learn.
he may be old already,but people still idolise him because he is a very generous and friendly person..
past few weeks,i ran a 2.4km practice organised by my teacher for the whole class..
guess what?
i ran finished at a timing of 7min 29seconds,some people were impressed by this kind of performance but i am not surprised at all because i have seen lots of timing for my run in the 7min range..in fact,it is time for me to build up some speed endurance in my training..
wat is the use of me training so much stamina,but so little amount of strength??it seems useless in showing progress..
possibility of me training stamina is always more than strength..
maybe,my body is born to build up stamina..
what others think it is useless and not worthy,i will train more..
training on strength is sure not for my kind of body..
stamina is the 1 which is suitable for my body,most probably i will consider running for a marathorn in the future..
i want to become a multi-sportsman in my life..
the kind which is famous for a few sports..
gtg cya

today is a boring day..

2007-12-27T23:39:00.000+08:00

today,i woke up by the noise of my fren when he called me in the morning at 10am.i woke up n rush to school upon his call.i rush to school thinking tat i will miss him out.indeed he reached there earlier than i do.he got everything when i reached the school,preparing to leave already.
after that,we headed to plaza to check my schedule for work.my frenz were there attending the training for peak service.all was looking at me as i seem to look lyk a joker to them..
i was very bored n went home after that...

today n yesterday is my best days ever..

2007-12-26T23:07:00.000+08:00

yesterday,i and my fren,Wan Hao,completed approximately 10km.
we ran through the whole bukit panjang,towards dairy farm estate.although Wan Hao seems lagging behind me,but he is very perservering to catch up wif me.whenever he is behind me,i have to make sure i wait for him to catch up.otherwise i will not run.we went through dead-end road in dairy farm.it was kind of tired,but i know that i will not wear out so easily due to the kind of trainings i took.everything seems to be so near that day but end up to jog so long.we ran back to Bukit Panjang Plaza to take water refills to hydrate ourselves.it was kind of wonderful although the distance could not be met easily.10km was my 1st attempt,because i told Wan Hao,i want to try a longer distance that day to improve my endurance.he gave me the green light to run although he stopped a lot of times while he cannot take it.in the end,we finished the entire place.
today,we went jogging again.the energy seems to be lagging today as compared to yesterday.i feel a bit tired but still felt lyk enduring more.i seem to be wanting to improve more on my endurance but scared of injuries might happen unknowingly.we jog through the Bukit Panjang Primary School towards the big drainage area behind the Fajar Secondary School.we ended up at Bukit Panjang Plaza.we went there to hydrate ourselves.it seems tiring n deadly but the heart to endure is there.although the muscles might reject working but the heart wants to work a lot.seems lyk my internal organs improve a lot throughout the jogging sessions.my personal dream is to become a very special person,but i don't know whether it will come true a not..

christmas eve,what am i going to do???

2007-12-24T22:38:00.000+08:00

i,hereby,wish everybody Merry Christmas..
Although i am not a Christian,but a Free-Thinker,i respect all religions and culture.today is Christmas Eve,i went to work in the morning at 7am.it was very bored as there was a lot of customers than usual.i stood as a counter with lots of orders.most of the time,i went very bored as i have nothing better to do while standing at the counter.every hour seems to be only a few customers.my runner was a funny person.every customer she served seems to jam up the waiting queue.i was very tired when i reach home from work.my stomach was not in good condition as there is some kind of pain which starts n end in a short while,i suspect it is related to the kind of food i consumed.it is very pain and can make a person do nothing with the pain but to bear with it.seems like next year is coming to a start,i am very afraid of next year,but i promised to myself i will study hard to gain a stepping stone from studies to pursue my dreamz in a career.it may be hard for me to pursue,but i believe that hard works bring my dreamz fulfilled.i believe that as long as there is no gatekeeper,dreamz will definitely be fulfilled according to your wishes.today was quite tiring as i finished 8km after my work-outs on my upper-body.my body seems to be more powerful than before,especially on my hands.Pull-ups seems better for me compared to last time.this time i want to focus a lot on my lower-body..

i wrote tis to make Everlyn happy..

2007-12-18T23:50:00.000+08:00

today i had a great fall on my back..
terribly injured on the hip bone..
looks lyk my pull-up bar in my house is not tat stable..
i tried to pull n yet the whole bar came out of the place..
i was terrified to learn the truth tat it loosen..
i fell on the floor wif my back facing down,nobody noe but my family noes..
wat a terrible feelin!!
i dunno wat to do wif the pain..
but most probably i will exercise wif the pain tomorrow...

wat a relieve!!

2007-12-18T22:21:00.001+08:00

hi,i am back after a long period..

2007-12-18T00:10:00.001+08:00

tomorrow is the day of posting N level results..
i am quite nervous,although i may look calm..
others see it as a big event..
i was wondering can i make a miracle??
tis few days has full of stupid weathers..
i had a hard time to train up my body muscles..
my trainin is more to the endurance side..
although i gt train strength,bt i see stamina as a more important thing..
stamina outbeats strength,while heartpower is everything..
mind-set is the 1 which brings great development to a person's performance..
i am very scared of the results..
dunno whether can i be able to continue or end my route...
i am still thinkin fine...

examz are over!!!

2007-05-28T21:36:00.000+08:00

wah!holidayz has juz began...my expectations were slower than what i thought of..very bored at home,as my injuries juz do not recover..after i return back from my fever,my injuries juz do not get recover.as long as i know,my birthday is coming 2morrow,i think there will be surprises everyday.my hope on my body does not even changed at all.i want to recover faster than what i think and become the next Muhammad Ali as he was my favourite sports idol who displayed good character development and good sportsmanship.this kind of character for a sportsman is worth being praised.until now,he still upholds the fame in boxing,nobody can take over him in fame.such a sportsman deserve life-long fame...well,holidayz are made for us to spent time to relax and play around.of course,not commiting crime but sleep longer than wat we usually sleep.whatever,many teachers and parents want their child to study and catch up wif the other students.haha,it is very true that many child were forced to study by parents.at the end of the day,the child do not get anything into his brain.this is very sad indeed.when a person is being mocked at others saying he is clumsy,his mind will get the information of clumsiness and really become clumsy.this is wat a human mind-set.that is why human should not mocked at others.it will be a tragic if the person turns out to be wat he is really mocked

now,examz are finally over!!!!

2007-03-08T17:27:00.000+08:00

wao!!exams are over,live is back to normal.wat i love is holidayz,as i have enough time to rest at home.but i have to go back to school at the noon...
i am busy from monday to friday.having all kinds of remedials in school.i am damn sad after taking back my results as i made a real drop in my studies which i did not expected.the reason why i had problem with my studies is mainly becoz i am seated behind having all kinds of noise pollution going to my ears.i hate that kind of feeling.students in my class are getting from bad to worst in their attitude as noise is going on every minute in the class.with this kind of environment,i juz wonder how to study when teacher is teaching??
this students are really inconsiderate to other students.this is wat i can express my views on them.today,4 boys were caned in my class as they ran away from morning assembly.i can see that they can still laugh after they got caned.
i am juz wondering,did the pain made them laugh????
however,the class went back to noisy grounds after the discpline master left with the HOD of PCCG.
the lessons were disrupted when i wanted to ask a question from MR RAO.i have no choice but to leave the question blank.
2morrow,there is training going on in NPCC and there is a PTM after the training,juz dunno wat to do...
i am juz scared of complains from teachers saying me a slow learner in class.
today,i received a good news.Kenneth told me that i have beat the timing of Singapore 4th catergory in 2.4km.the timing for that kind of standard is at 8.40min,but my timing is at 8.50min.the last time,my timing is at 8.47min,and now i improve 22secs effectively.seems like over-exerting myself is a form of improvement in my stamina.hahaaha!!!!!i dun believe it!!

who is darren?

2007-02-03T17:56:00.000+08:00

darren is me actually...he is juz too shy to face a girl whom he is lyk the worst man i ever seen,he may be strong outside but very soft-hearted guy.wishing to make more frenz to get people to know him better.wondering why is he shy??aiya,drop the topiche is a guy,who is too friendlynot an introvert,butmore to an extrovert.likes a girl a lot,likes to exercise[if 1 day never exercise,will die that kind of character]do not likes to be insulted by frenz.anyway,friendship to him is already very good to him,but coming to talk about relationship,he is really out of words.....

today????

2007-01-11T16:48:00.001+08:00

today,wat happen???
today,i saw Suresh fighting wif Jing Song in class,insulting each other,well,i hack care as i am not interested in the fight that they got into..but i am confirmed i will support my fren,Suresh,because Jing Song always cause trouble in class wif the group of his.
now,they are also insulting me,calling me a female,when i did not bother them.so wat they are big???
they are juz hooligan,finding trouble...
i dun even want to care about them as they always make noise in class...
i hate that group much as i hate the terrorists
i find them sucks
they do not need to gain any respect at all....
i juz want to be strong and intelligent,i will be good enough to blow them off!!!!

haha!!i am back !!!

2006-12-21T12:45:00.000+08:00

hey,guyz!!!i am back!!
my house is the warmest compare to the outside shopping mall
the place are juz either cold or very hot in KL
i went there for 5 dayz
spending my time there juz eating n shopping
in fact,i did not really enjoy down there!!
becoz i bought very little clothings.
i promise myself
once i reached home,i am going to start my training program on the following day
indeed,i started yesterday wif full-set at the beginning and climb the stairs when it was raining catz n dogz.actually,i planned to play basketball,but the rain came n change my decision of playing...
so sad!!!dunno when will i be able to go back to the basketball court n play.....

boring

2006-12-08T16:19:00.000+08:00

my life seems to be fated a bored person....i actually love a girl but juz thinking dunno whether she has the heart for melosing a month of not playing basketball which is Novemberfor the whole month,i was Missing In Action[MIA]going to work everyday,not playing basketball for 1 month.now i return,my fren think that i have gone behind years of trainingquite true,my handpower is weaker than anything.Stamina seems ok for me,but skills are degraded for some how.now juz thinking how to improve my skills....

good,now i changed my handphone no.

2006-11-27T15:58:00.000+08:00

the dayz are boring!!!!!

2006-11-17T13:27:00.000+08:00

haha!!!!it is indeed very true that i find holidays boring,i do not get to see my good frenz for about 2 months until school reopens!!!!wat a boring period i have????i am going to be bored by staying at home during this period.......
wat am i going to do??????workout until fall sick?????haha!!!!so interesting to fall sick....but i hate it!!!!!nowadayz i find tat i am very lucky,i saw 1 NBA player,a Nigro at ViVocity yesterday.very tall and strong....
that time i made frenz with another NBA player,also very tall,staying around BUKIT PANJANG currently...
so sad...i am not fated to join and win any competition.worst,i cannot prove to everyone i have good strength because my strength is really damn poor compared to my frenz.but 1 thing good about me which i have and my frenz lost badly to me is my stamina.because i train everyday evening,started training last year after my father taught me.
at the start,i was lyk u guyz,very neutral and know nothing about stamina or strength,all i know i was about playing a fool..i started playing basketball at Sec 1,as i have nothing better to do.i train myself on Lay-outs,which is going to the basket and made sure the ball go in to the basket.i knew nothing in the start as my hands were not so strong compared to the others.i came down to play basketball everyday,to make myself better,which i dun believe in the start.indeed after learning so many tricks,i learned Hook-shot,some kinds of Lay-outs pattern outside the red box.it is so difficult to learn this dirty trick....but everyone made fun of my trick....by immitating me when i actually learn this trick in my game when i play PS2.
last year,after my father taught me how to train abdominal muscles,i came out with a plan in my mind,telling myself that i muz build the muscles better than the average people outside.so i trained everyday,at after every 1 hour-plan,when no one is at home.i got scolding from my mother as the floor was really oily because of the body-oil.no one knews that i started training at April,especially the training every hour in the afternoon..
during the Route-Run,i proved everyone wrong,by running ahead without thinking but i let a person run ahead getting 1st,when i actually can get it.but anyway it is a success of my training method to proved everything that i trained is useful.at the same time,i was disgusted with the feeling of losing.that was very funny....
now,i still have not give up on my training,i tell myself not to carry weights lyk the dumbbell,or else i would really regret.maybe,i am borned to run or trained in these way.......

why am i so miserable?????????

2006-11-13T14:21:00.000+08:00

yesterday was somebody's birthday,i did not wish the person,i felt very miserable in my heart although i might look very very happy outside..yesterday was a very forceful day as i could not sleep at night.the day was not a good day for me..being a student,i do not really have big interest in studies.i realise my dream was to become someone famous going to other countries and prove to people that i am not useless as a person.now i find Suresh is a very big nuisance,not only i could not tolerate his nonsense,William,one of my best fren,could not tolerate him and wanted to bashed him up..this Suresh in presence makes me think tat he is not the previous normal Suresh,as he acted like a Bangla from Bangladesh....he despised me for no reason,when i did not even offend him at all.he is totally crazy..talk to him also want to throw out...to me,in my opinion,only mad people will behave like this.scolding and discrimminating others for no reason.i think i dun have him as a fren will be better.he is very sickening and very irritating now,last time he was not behaving like this...haiya,dun talk about him or else i will be blood-boiled........many people may think i get close to girls because i have a soft-touched for them...actually it is not true.i,Darren,only have a space to love and care for 1 person,of course it is a girl whom i lyk for long.i am not a flirtatious guy,i am juz making very good frenz,hope she will not suspect anything.i am not the kind of big and daring person,but more to the shy side.even if i love a girl,it will be in-builded to my heart,very easy to love,very hard to forget...my heart may be very supportive to physical exercises,but my heart tells me that loving a person is more important then my health..if i were to lose a girl,i will be damn heart-broken....that is why i cherish everything beside me,before i am gone with regrets.my heart tells me that love is stronger than the muscles i have on my body now.love is very long-lasting compared to the muscles i have,which can maybe lasts for only about 20-40 years.when a person grows old ,the muscles will also follow the body,growing old.but some muscles will remain at the position.juz thiking how can i go to NS,given the ability of my hand-power,i dun think my handz will be able to survive.....hope tat when the time comes,i will survive with the help of moral support from someone whom i love and care for me...

to challenge someone is not easy!!!

2006-11-09T13:15:00.000+08:00

to challenge a person u muz noe how well is his or her capabilities,do not ever underestimate an opponent which is too rude to show disrespect.an opponent may be weak,but he or she may be strong in certain area.underestimating an opponent is completely unacceptable.winning a race may be an enjoyment to some people,but those who takes part in a race did not get anything.when they did not acheive anything,they will try their best to improve on all their weaknesses to bring them a better improvement on their next race.same goes to the studies,u also need some sportsmanship for some character development,a person who keeps studying without seeing the outside nature,will lead to brain-dead,study all u can and play all u can before it is too late!!!

nowadayz raining so badly!!!

2006-11-06T14:22:00.000+08:00

wah!!!the sky is so dark nowadayz,want to go and play basketball also not easy.actually my mind is not over.i was playing with a few gangsters last week...they were making fun of me n then they want me to play 3 matches with a few of them.they were playing rough against me,by knocking on me,saying i foul when i did not.....
seeing them makes me sick,they are very bad people hanging around in the basketball court.i will not play wif them anymore next time...............

y is every1 lyk this???

2006-10-31T13:13:00.000+08:00

last friday,i was introduced by my fren to an NBA player named LEO.he is a coach of ACS High for basketball.he is going to join the tournament soon for singapore.standing beside him makes me pressurize.i am envy of his height as he is so much taller than me.
when i was playing a match wif him,he was blocked by 4 ppl but he managed to score through them.he slam dunk 2 times in the match,i was shocked that the rim did not even went out of shape.he is also very aggressive is playing.the way he played was very good,i was also out of words to say him.he ever helped Lakers to play a match before....
he is staying around my estate,most of the time in Plaza.
Nowadays,i am digusted wif Suresh's behaviour.he thinks he is the best in the whole class when he gt good results.now he is even looking down on me saying me a gay,when i did not offend him.Li Poh could not also stand him wif his nonsense.getting good results made him so proud,when the results are only ok,he tend to be a normal person.he is also very proud wif his results thinking that he is the best scorer in class.i hate this kind of stupid character,so proud,so stupid.......

diE!!!there are lots of things during holidays!!!

2006-10-25T16:20:00.001+08:00

i am dead!there are lots of activities happening soon which is starting next week.wat am i to do,sit there and looking for death?Today,i visit the ART MUSEUM with my frenz following my school,it was a very boring day for us as there was not much things,moreover,we visited the museum lots of times since young.the day was not a fun day.tomorrow is the last day of me going to school,but there are still many lessons to go during the holidays.this lessons are about 2 weeks long,which takes almost half a month.i think i am going to be angry due to the long-term studies.i dun lyk the way we are treated as lower sec are not having anything on.sad indeed!!!!

diE!!!there are lots of things during holidays!!!

2006-10-25T16:20:00.000+08:00

yes!!!finally,exams are gone!!!!

2006-10-12T15:49:00.000+08:00

today,my Poa is the last test on exams.i am more relaxed now but because of the problem from my class,i cannot relaxed.i am on some kind of problems in it also.i am very worry to face it.my chinese teacher is causing lots of trouble to my class.i hate her to the core!!!always bringing trouble to Mdm Teo and the whole class,now,the class has a bad reputation,all thanks to this stupid teacher!!!previous teacher was not as bad as this teacher.since the day this teacher came to my class,i have no peace and no times where i can study and absorb the words in properly,she is only doing harm to my class,teaching is not her professional and she should not even teach me at 1st.lyk tat,she is bringing more harm to my class..
today,i may be happy bt same time also very sad,coz of the troubles cause by the class.she is also too much already..........................................

today is my chinese paper!!!!

2006-10-02T14:36:00.000+08:00

today is the start of the nightmare,my chinese was always poor.since this teacher teach,i have low confidence in my chinese.this teacher may be fierce,bt nobody was scared of her as she was nice to be step on by the naughty classmates.i think i will change the topic.i was going around my mind wondering whether what i did???why are most of my class girls so cold towards me???last time they were like frenz to me,still talking and laughing like respected in any way.when i talk to them now,they will ignore me like i am that scary.well,dunno wat is going on in their mind????especially Denise,Xiu Wen and the whole group...
i find that these few people are trying to throw their hatred to me...past few days,i was talking to Yan jun and Pei ling,juz because of noisy class 3a2 wif us,3a1 in Isaac room,i said i could not hear properly to Yan jun,she shouted angrily or rather so madly like a dog,that made me so embarrassed towards everyone.since after the incident,they was like not talking to me as a fren anymore.now,only Pei ling and Li poh respected me among them.they are quite good bt sometimes a bit bad-tempered.dunno wat is happening to these few girls.now,Denise is getting more and more proud,she is not the last time Denise,her heart is completely black.nowadays,in her heart,she was like scolding me an idiot.that i talked to her,she scolded me stupid idiot.these girls never respect me at all!!!dunno wat is going on???
these reactions were found out by me alone,nobody found out yet.i found out since the past week,bt i acted happy outside,actually i felt the hatred from them already.especially Denise,after she stepped up as HOD,most of the sec 3s find her very unreasonable as she made us stayed back for meeting discussing things among she and Hazimah,i dunno wat to say about them or wat word to use to describe them,bt i felt that they are trying to use their high post to pressure the other posts by saying works have been covered by the HOD,which i felt that they are willing to help when others dun need and help.i find that they are trying to be proud of themselves!!!

hahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-09-29T17:20:00.000+08:00

today,my frenz were crowding around during the Social studies period,waiting to take answers for the chinese period before recess.we were very excited to see the coming test on the chinese period,as we have all copy the answers down and wait to get full marks.as time flies,the test proceed,we were asked to put our things on the floor.i hid the answers in my file,i dropped it below my desk.as the papers came,i finish as fast as possible by copying everything down and shade the whole OTAS paper.after finishing the paper,everyone was like laughing,saying tat works can be done so fast without thinking.my teacher even said tat if all of us can score above 85 marks,she will treat us to the cinema.i was there giggling as i know everyone copies the answers given by my fren.wat a funny day,it is today,hahaha!!!!my chinese teacher was juz too foolish to give us a treat,as we know that we are going to have the answers all correct without having to look.today,we also did clearing of our books and all stuffs.next monday,we are going to have our chinese paper.i am a bit too worried for the chinese paper next week,i dunno wat to do next week.i think i am going to have many risks next week.i think i better get going to go and study.see all u guys after exams!!!Bye!!!guysya!forget about this.i wish u guys seeing this blog have good luck for your exams,score well!!!Bye!!!!

the chapt are gettin difficult!!!

2006-09-27T18:33:00.000+08:00

i hate to study for the EOY and i find it is difficult to cope wif the studies plus the project give to me today,eveyone was in a mist of unconsciousness and need a lot of help from frenz.i could not actually understand wat Ming Hui explain to me.i was also very tired and need some rest,i find that time is goin very fast nowadays and it is hard to catch up now..wat to do???

everyone!!takin a rest!!

2006-09-25T18:25:00.001+08:00

Hi everyone!!exam is coming soon!!!i will not be that free to rite postings everyday until the exams are over during the holidays!!!wish the exams quickly over so that i have peace with my life!!i dun need to struggle so badly for exams!!!anyway wish everyone good luck for your exams.wish u guys do well!!!

Faizal Sucks to the core!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-09-19T17:01:00.000+08:00

actually,today there was no trouble in the morning.after some lessons,faizal looked down on me badly during chemistry lesson.saying that i sucks,nevermind...i bear in mind.during recess,while walking down,Suresh ask Faizal who he hate,he answered Suresh telling that it was me.seeing him makes me sick.so proud,so racist,so boastful,so idiot,like to talk bad about people especially me,when i never offended him.if i had offended him in anyway,at least i understand,but he offended me directly without any reasons.he see me feeling not happy and start to talk bad about me.even i hate a person,i would not be as bad as this kind of person,i would ignore the guy whom i hate.this guy is getting overboard,even all of my close frenz could not really tolerate him.since he came to my class around March,i did not had any peaceful life as i hear his critisism against me,looking down on me and talking bad about me when i did not offend him.Mr Chui is blind to norminate him as one of the president that time,seeing his appearance,luckily he backed out,otherwise,NCC owns up a bad impression because of him.such kind of person should not be studying in my class,acting like 1 dog in front of people,seeing mouse,stabbed it any how without mercy.even Suresh lost to me in 2.4km,but he accept his fate by admitting defeat and supported me.this guy has the guts to looked down on me means he want to challenged me,see who is faster in 2.4km!!!if he were to challenge me,he will lost to me with a laughing stock as i will make him no position to laugh at me.he want to challenge me?Bring it on!!!i am not scared!!!doesn't mean that being in Ncc has the rights to laugh at people!!!!doesn't mean that Ncc people can win Npcc in terms of fitness and stamina!!!!!Faizal is a an introvert!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i just feel pitiful for his parents!!! winning me in stamina?????not so easy!!!dun talk about me,try winning my father and my grandfather 1st????my father's average timing is 10min plus,wat about my grandfather????he is confirmed around......not sure,but my family is born to tolerate long-term run and walk for long hours.For me,want to challenge???bring on!!!but i think u confirm lose for sure.not even 11min is recorded in your timing,u are oso not in top5 position in 3.6km,want to win me????Dream on!!!!beat my father in 2.4km 1st,then come and challenge me!!!!or come straight to challenge me in 2.4km!!!!!Faizal,if you have the guts,and now looking at what i write,challenge me!!!!!!!

Sad Dayz

2006-09-18T16:53:00.000+08:00

Everyone i am back from the toturing camp juz yesterday!!!!it is a very terrible camp although i have it bored!!!the CIs were also quite terrible!!!!the tent was quite save as there was no mosquitoes at night disturbing compared from last year!!!it was unfair as last year,we got hell and this year Sec 2s did not get any suffering!!!poor us,our batch are very much different and they are more comfortable.i am happy in the camp as i saw and made lots of frenz in the activities when we need leadership.all of us came to an agreement,saying not to go for the high elements as we were scared of heights.i said"if we are man enough,dun go and climb the high elements later!"true enough,we all did not climb at all but we participate in the tunnel trekking.it was very dark,luckily we brought along a lighter inside.unfortunately,halfway through,the fuel was gone and there was no more fire.we turned ourselves out of the tunnel then.managing out,there was only one exit,we overcame many difficulties struggling up and down in the tunnel.we were very serious although we were saying jokes which are indeed dirty and funny.the day was tiring yet fun with our frenz.i admit although i hate ATC,but the activities which has groupings wif my frenz turn the tables and chairs to a new one!!!!

hi!got ATC camp somemore still got stupid exam coming,so tired of living

2006-09-14T16:59:00.000+08:00

aiya!stupid exam is coming in less than 2 weeks,very very worry for the exams coming.tomorrow is the ATC STupid camp.it is a very toturing camp,i hate going there as i will get lots of mosquitoes bites,worst still high elements and hot at night.the campsite itself is very dirty,something like cemetry.once bitten,twice shy!!!I HATE GOING TO CAMP ESPECIALLY ATC CAMP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i also hate exam a lot ,it is the toughest in our level,somemore principal dun lyk my level.dunno how????????????????????????????????????????

hi!!!now is school holidays,dunno wat to do???

2006-09-03T16:50:00.000+08:00

now is school holidays only for 1 week and school is returning back on for 3 weeks towards end-of-year examinations.ATC camp is coming soon for Sec3s and Sec2s,i hate the campsite as it is full of mosquitoes,the place has all kinds of weird adventure which i find it very boring.anyway,who likes ATC???those who likes the camp must be out of his or her mind.anyway,ATC is the worst part in my CCA as compared to other activities.i hate ATC the most.i like to see frenz in ATC as some of them are very friendly and nice to befriend.but the worst is the sleeping time as u have to face the sounds of mosquitoes and worst still,they will bite you even on your legs in your track pants.life is meaningless,i rather die than go to the ATC,what for suffer in such a way????
the experience of mosquitoes is unexpectable in the campsite,apply lots of mosquito repellent is of no use even u tried to.1st night is the sleepless night as u will experience it.2nd night,u will fall asleep during campfire as they sing and cheer.when they clap,u will pretend that u are awake by clapping with them.3rd day should be the day to be back home.i hate the campsite as it is very very lousy.1st experience,2nd will not be able to try,3rd will be not able to try,4th will be not willing,5th will be do not even want at all.

i got my target!!!!!!!!

2006-08-31T15:08:00.000+08:00

Today is teacher's day!!!a day for teachers to celebrate together after the long term of scolding we,students in school.anyway,they deserve some rest same as we students.sometimes i juz have the heart of sympathy for them as we,students put the teachers into difficult positions.sometimes,i still treat them like a fren of mine.wat to do,teachers are 1 of the friendliest people on earth,but not all of the teachers are friendly as i think they are some forms of introvert.which teacher i hate in this school?let me think,i got lots of names to be listed.Ms Lok and Ms Lam,other teachers are ok.these 2 teacher cannot make the lessons interesting and let the students bully them,these teachers made me think that they have no pride in them.lessons were conducted in a boring way for me and therefore made me lost interest in that subject.this kind of teachers are not up to the school standard to teach students.don't talk about them already,i hate them!!!!!!!
Yesterday,i went to practice running 2.4km in P.E lessons,i improve very fast from the timing i got to 8minutes47seconds.it is a huge improvement i ever seen in my life.i have practice a lot of exercises recently due to my working-out exercises at night before i went to bed.that is very scary as i suddenly improve so rapidly.maybe i am born to run long-distances runs in short times,or the genes is very strong and made me had a strong impact in my stamina.now,i realise the good use of having stamina rather than speed.not every person is born with stamina in the school.from what i know,most of my frenz are born with speed and has the biggest disadvantages in their lives.they may win in the 5 stations work-outs but it is unavoidable for me to win them in any kind of long-distances runs.hahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!now,i am enlightened from what my father said,no wonder he always believed in building up stamina rather than speed.stamina has a great amount of good use,those who are born with speed,good luck to you,guys!!hahaha!!!!!after the run,i was physically very unstable.she was there observing my movements.again to say,i am always a very shy person,therefore facing her for me is very hard and need lots of perserverance.as i announced to my frenz,the timing of my run to them,they praised me very highly.i think there is still ways to improve my timing although this is a good success done by me.after that,i went to the toilet to change.on the way,i talk to my frenz,she was at the girlz toilet corridor talking to my fren,as she know that i see her she went to hide.my fren was talking halfway and she went to hide,i was laughing but also feeling very very shy.

i am happy!!!

2006-08-28T16:15:00.000+08:00

Today i got a chinese test in class during chinese lesson,the questions were very difficult to answer,ever since this chinese teacher,Miss Lok teach me,i think i have been not doing well for chinese.this teacher has been copying the same kind of explanation from the textbook.her explanation were not much simpler than the explanation in the textbook.i think she does not deserve the respects from the class.wat she is teaching to the class are not being understand by the pupils,i want the kind of strict teacher like Mr Hang who can be strict enough to the students so when the next lesson he or she might not forget to bring his or her things.Chinese in my views and opinions became a very boring subject to study after being taught by this teacher.anyway,i will not same her stupid or what,i think she is very inexperienced in teaching.i don't even want this kind of teacher to teach my class,i still wish that she can quickly get out of teaching my class,better still,get out of the whole school since she is not accepted and her tolerance level is so low.she still said she graduated with the certificate of China,i think she graduated with the certificate from Bangladesh.she is the only teacher who i ever think is not good enough to teach students,i think students can even teach better than the way she teach.Aiya!!dun talk about her,otherwise i will lose my sportsmanship and my temper.
today,i made an attempt to talk to Suresh as the conflicts between us has past,he replied to me.i still thought he will talk bad about me.i went to play soccer during recess time and understand the fun of soccer.today,i was following Wan Hao to the class in the morning.halfway,at 1st floor,we were talking,i saw her in front of me.i talk as loud as i could to attract attention but she did not turn over and look at me.maybe,she knews i always walk that road.now,i find that i not a good [P.T]Personal Trainer.i am not good enough to coach people.today,Mr Tan came to my class for S.M.A.R.T,i saw her Nafa test,she got 15min55seconds for 2.4km which is quite good.but if she went under my kind of training,she will become better than me by a few seconds.although my 2.4km was recorded at 9min25seconds and i am the 1st in class,but i never had the kind of happiness in me as i always depised myself,tortured myself by over-trained,because my life has something missing and i think the thing could not be found in anywhere except in my heart.the thing which is imperfect for me should be love support and love,this is why i feel uncomfortable in my heart and could not wish for the perfect in me.

so sad!my frenz are not wif me now!

2006-08-25T13:41:00.000+08:00

so funny!my timing for 2.4km was worst,cannot say it is worst because i run from the bookshop to the bookshop again.it was slightly further by taking 1min+ from the finishing line of 2.4km to the bookshop.in this year,my stamina increase a lot and my 2.4km run never acceed 9min45seconds other than this run which was slightly further.i lost contact with my close fren as he became proud after getting back his results yesterday.i was angry with the way he behave,from then,he show off his results to everyone,the person when i knew him was not like that,he suddenly changed to another person.i dun even recognized him anymore.today he keep on looking down on me saying bad things about me.another person who i hate the most in class is Faizal,he is very damn proud,he forced me to conduct stretching exercises in P.E lessons.i have to stand in front of the class to conduct stretching.after a while of stretching which is not finished yet,they told teacher that they finished stretching and went to play games.i have nothing to do but i went to run 2.4km.after running,i rest for a while as i kept losing my balance and cannot walk properly.my head was in spinning mood after the run.after that Mr Tan asked me to improve my Sit-Ups so that i can get Silver for my NAFA Test.i agreed and take the risk doing 42Sit-Ups although i was not in a very stable condition to continue the next station.taking risk for my life in sports is an exciting game for me,although i dun like the feeling of over-exertion but it forms part of my life,i have a strong bond to all kinds of exercises created in my way.although i got no personal trainer but i like to train exercises without weights in my way.my father also lost to me although he has the chest and shoulder muscles.i win him on my 10abs which is better than the chest and shoulder muscles.i envy my father as carrying weights with chest muscles will not affect the growth and it is protecting the bones from getting short.aiya!talk about these are all of no use,the best is to run and beat 8minutes in 2.4km.

On tuesday,during Npcc,i was helping to take care the casualties by letting them looking at the performances,two casualties from Sec 1s and 1 casualty from Sec 2.after seeing the Sec 2 casualty,i was shocked and surprised,it was her,she is sick and having a headache.poor her,she was resting in the cadet room,she must have missed the sergeant test.omg!i went to help my frenz in the cadet room,she was looking at me observing me.then,Neelaufar was there trying to make of me and her telling that my face will go red in front of her.very shy to see her in front of me.she was bending leaning on her thighs resting,Neelaufar was trying to talk all kinds of nonsense to me and Tony was also laughing there,making me so shy.

hello!everyone

2006-08-23T17:17:00.000+08:00

today was my photo-taking day.i was very scared of taking photos as i dunno how to really smile properly.i was always scolded for not smiling properly juz like how my father smile but my father is slightly better than me as he can smile nicer than me.after that,my 2 sec2 cadet came to force me in to a Geography competition,i was force to join in with them.after that,1 more person was needed to join in.i was so bored as they said they might to find a girl to join in.i was sitting beside her table being very shy,i talk to the sec2s as the way i normally talk to others.when she was beside the table,she was actually observing my reactions and behaviour.of course,Suresh was there,also making fun of me,calling out for her.i was damn shy and kept quiet.after that,i went up to the staff-room to take my bag,Denise make fun of me by saying she is going to call her,i went home straight!!

hey!everyone,exam is over!

2006-08-21T16:23:00.000+08:00

exam is over!the feeling is good!well i got back my Maths,Social Studies and Physics results back today.all 3 papers was a pass and i did not fail.i did not regret about the results as i scored higher than last time especially Social Studies.i made an improvement although i had it just pass.today,i went to the library to receive Social Studies paper,after that i went to take a book to join Suresh and frenz for reading.after finishing the 1st book,Faizal went to sit my place.i was looking for another book to read,so i have to go to another place to sit.after i leave,Faizal talk bad about me saying that i walk here and there and say i cannot sit still.i bear with his nonsense then.anyway to me,Faizal as a student and student counsilor is of no value,to me,he is only a bastard in my eyes.i respected every person and every soul including him,but did he ever show me the least respect to me before?seeing him made me sick!!!
every time,Faizal is always creating trouble in my class,like kicking the used bottles on the floor to his frenz.causing havoc in class is his professional.he looked down on most of the people in class especially me,i find that he is always finding trouble against me,i could tolerate him as he sucks!!!he thinks he is the cleverest in the class and have the rights to looked down on people,so what?even how clever he is,how tough his CCA is,he still cannot beat me his 2.4km track timing.don't even need to talk about 9min25secs which is my recorded time,if he can hit the 10min timing directly,i will admit defeat.i bet he could not even finished at 12mins directly,so the more he should not looked down at people.good in mentally does not mean he is perfect,if his body is unstable,don't even talk about walking,taking up a pen will be very hard for him.physically strong is confirm to be better,if you are strong in studies but your heart is weak,what for do you study?you should be meeting your own doom!!!
Faizal in Ncc?oh my god! why does Ncc has such a weakling like him?why does Ncc has a proud person like him?does Ncc teach people how to criticizes people?whatever,i treated him like a weakling and an idiot!!!
Today,i thought i would see her in her duty but i saw her in the morning during assembly.after that,during my recess,she was not there.she was lost!!!i still felt very shy,lucky for me.but surya is going to ask her something about me.oh my god!this time i could even hide!how?

hey!everyone!got exam,so i will only log in next week.

2006-08-16T15:20:00.000+08:00

hey!wats up duck?i am sure now got exam in most of the school.if don't have,sorry for not writing this few days.everyone who is looking at this blog are maybe my frenz or perhaps......
today,juz started common test for english and social studies.well,the paper was ok for both tests but i did not have enough time to finish my summary for english,social studies was quite ok as i learned the skill to the source-based questions.dunno whether can i pass wif good marks a not?best is i can faster finish the exam and go off to next week.exam is the most horrible dream for me.i hate failing my subjects and get scolding from my parents.see what can i do for the subjects lah.
today,during assembly,the whole school was brief about the construction of the upgraded school in 2009,after i left the school.after assembly,she came down and did her duty.when i was coming out,she knew i know she was there,she hid behind the hall near the chairs to hide away from me.as i saw her,i felt very shy and walk down to the canteen.dunno whether,is she still in the school now,studying with her frenz?or has she went home to study?ya!talk about study,i hate studying but i like sports to a certain extent,to a large limit,at least 100 times the interests of studying.studying is a form of toture to me but sometimes quite interesting because i like maths,POA and the study of sports.the only kind of book i like reading will be sports book which teaches me skills of therapists and running skills to train strong foundation of stamina.stamina is what i desires most in sports not speed,i find that long distance run is better than short distance run as i hate short distance run.

hey!!everyone i am back!!!!!!!!

2006-08-14T09:30:00.000+08:00

Everyone listening here!!!I am Darren back here in blogspot!!!yesterday i did a lot of exercises in the afternoon.i did breathing exercises in the warm-up exercises.After that i did push-ups at a 20,leg-stretches,crunches at 80 and leg-raises at 80 also.at night,i also did breathing exercises,20 push-ups,leg-stretching,crunches at 80 and leg-raises at 80,i did all this exercises repeatedly.today,the girl whom i lyk was in the hall on top looking for where i sit ,i was running the whole day non-stop,nobody knews about it,although i never noticed it in the morning in the assembly hall,but i felt it.my fren even told me about this after school when i see her.she said that she looked at me when i am below,i felt very shy.after school,she was quietly studying wif her 2 of her frenz,1 is Nadzirah,another 1 of her fren,i really got no idea.seeing her makes me blush,this is what Suresh said.i don't know how to face her with the blushed face of mine,it makes me very shy to see her that i am in this plight.juz now,before her self-study,i saw her and Nadzirah talking together alone.seeing her like this,i felt very.......i know that she is very lonely when she is only talking to 1 person.she is quite conscious in study and cheerful,but i am only a guy who treat sports and exercises like my studies,don't know how.juz now in the canteen,during lunch-break,i was sitting wif my frenz talking to them as they were eating,she was sitting 2 tables away from my back,she was also facing my back,perhaps she purposely sit that way to observe me,but i was so shy that i cannot even turn behind.my fren,Kennerth still called her so loud purposely,"ching wee!darren is here!".i was so shy but have to walk away.Oh my god!what to do for this friday games??i have no idea,the HOD is holding me responsible for the games.i only think that we can play Treasure Hunt,dunno anyone will like???hey,guys have to go,see you again!!!!!!byebye!!!!

today i got holiday homework!!!omg,still got exam!!Die for sure!!!!!

2006-08-11T15:26:00.000+08:00

Today,during chinese,juz because of the national day holiday and teacher forgot to give holiday homework,we have to complete after exam and pass to teacher.i don't know how i am going to do the project maybe alone.the project that i am going to do will be most probably about sports.i am going to introduce all kinds of sports and exercises to everyone saving in my powerpoint slides.my experience for sports is a lot,i lyk rollerblading,playing basketball and last of all,jogging and other challenging exercises lyk climbing up and down the stairs lyk monkey and stationery exercises.my teacher is damn clever knowing the class will confirm leave this work unfinished.i dun noe how to finish this alone without any help from my frenz because my frenz had 0 knowledge on sports and exercises.what am i going to do?????nobody is able to help me in this project,this is the time i have to be independent and stand up for myself.this project consists of 1-3 ppl,no more than this,dunno how to survive.today,Surya talk to a person whom i lyk,when she said things,Surya kept saying interesting,but no reaction was given by her,maybe she hates the word as i kept on saying in the past and reminded her about me or she was shy hearing the word,then she have no reaction.poor me,i dunno whether i can finish the project alone a not,i think i can only plan as i move on
signing off
DARREN TAN JUN YUAN
The "Interesting" guy

today NDP!wish everyone enjoy your day!!!

2006-08-08T12:02:00.000+08:00

Today is National Day!!I think everyone is excited as there are holidays for them.I am not really that happy as i will not be seeing "someone" for 2 days.Anyway,wat am going to do in this few days?Tone my body?Sleep??Study???
I think i need to study and exercise moderately.To me,exercise stands a higher i importance than study.Maybe,i shall study and play basketball in the evening.
Yesterday night,i had a very funny dream.it seems to be very real.I dreamt of a girl whom i lyk came to my dream.She knows tat i am over-exerting myself everyday before i go to bed,she cried continuously knowing tat i have to go to her and stopped her from crying.The next moment,when i was about to reach her,she hugged me very tightly and grabbed me on my back wings.She told me"No matter what,i will not let you go and face death,if you want to die,i will die wif you"
After i heard everything she said,she stopped crying and said to me"Darren,actually i love you long ago,but i am very shy to tell you.Promise me that you will never over-exert yourself anymore."
After hearing that, i burst into tears knowing that her words had touched me.i grabbed her very tightly and hugged her.I do not want to leave her already.
After the dream,i woke up already.I think if that was not a dream but was a real scene,then that will be very good.But of course,i will still exercise everyday before i go to bed.
Wish everyone Happy National Day!!!!!!!!!

tomorrow i will be goin to malaysia

2006-08-05T16:20:00.001+08:00

today was a lucky day for me,i was trying not to go for attachment tomorrow.in the start,i was struggling not to go tomorrow,but i failed.until 2.30pm,i was helped by my fren,he said that he will do 2 person's job tomorrow.i am so frightened to think tat i have to go to Plaza Singapura tomorrow.my mother tell me to find an excuse to excuse myself tomorrow,so that i can go to Malaysia peacefully.
Now,a lot of people said tat i can be the NBA All-Star player because i am aggresive under the net.even some of frenz said this.i am only good under the net,Freestyle layout,Alleyhoop and Long-range layout.A lot of people got "Burned" by me is because of my Long-range layout.i seldom shoot the basketball from the Free-throw line or 3 pointer line,all this are wat my frenz said.i agree because i lyk to run a lot not because i lyk to speed but i lyk to increase stamina.i play basketball not because i lyk to shoot but i lyk to do layout.anyway,other than basketball,i rollerblade some times.rollerblade is a very good sport to burn calories.last time,my father taught me how to rollerblade,i was rollerblading everyday as he called me to come down to the carpark to practise.tat was wat i learn,soon i overtake him in the skills and became an expert in rollerblade.tat time when i started learning,i was approximately Sec 1 and juz a beginner in it.not long,i was asked to go to East Coast Park to rollerblade,it was fun but the place was in a mess as many people were there to cycle and for picnic.East Coast Park has been changing since i visited for rollerblading.
My aim for the future is to become a sportsman.not the lousy ones,but the well-known kinds of sportsman.maybe i am born to run long-distance,or my father spread the genes to me too seriously.maybe God gave me strong legs for long-term resistance in long runs.up to today,i have not gave up on my stomach muscles and my "special resistance" training as i believe that"TIREDNESS IS AN EXCUSE,SICKNESS IS THEN AN EXCUSE".to me,i believe in all these as it made me have the confidence."TRAINING MAKES A BETTER PERSON",hope tat everyone believes in it.

training is good!!

2006-08-02T15:50:00.000+08:00

hahaha!!!!yesterday's training is tough tat i have backache now.i have tired out myself on the day before yesterday by climbing 104 stories up the stairs excluding down the stairs.the feeling is lyk a person in the air,hanging lyk michael jordan.last saturday,i climb 54 stories for the 1st time.on monday,i went to try out on 2.4km,i improve by 5 seconds compared to the taken-down time which is the real test.other than me,Suresh is the 2nd in class.time taken was 10min02secs,lost to me by 37secs.it is an improvement for me,but i am not satisfied so easily.i am going to train until i will improve all the way to 8mins.
today is a boring day for me,i was looked down by faizal always.today,he look down on me again.
once i see him,i feel lyk smacking him.he is too proud,worst still he looked down on most of the people in class.seeing him spoils my day,i dun think i will live for 3 years staying with this mad guy in my class.i am now blood-boiled because of him.i admit i may lose to him in studies,but i can win him and obliterate him in physical fitness,body muscles and long distance run.Faizal is a very clever but in the sense of looking down on others.next time when i see him looking down on me,i made sure i scold him upside down.he may be from NCC,a very tough CCA which needs a lot of endurance in it,but he dun seem lyk he is a very enduring person.who says NCC may win NPCC,i beg to differ.Faizal stupid!!!!i dun wan to see him again!!!!!

bangla racism

2006-07-28T16:22:00.000+08:00

hahaha!!!i am very unlucky today,1 girl know i lyk her n she also admired me.quite true indeed,my looks maybe more to the studious look but i dun lyk to study as it is not interesting.Being a sportsman is wat i wan when i grow up.nobody can stop me from making my dream come true.i find tat life is very boring as i could not have a peace in mind.i could not stop myself from liking her but i only wish the best for her.hoping i can be wif her when i grow up.to me,my post as an P.T.I is a very pitiful post as i am being controlled by the H.O.D who is higher in terms of authority,my post is juz lyk being controlled by her.P.T will be all controlled by her,i am juz like a fool being taken in.i muz save Jin Hui and Dennis next week as i have promised them tat i will conduct P.T to cover their embarassment.this is a deal,i muz keep to it.i know tat next week,they confirm cannot conduct a smooth P.T.i decided to take up the challenge against the H.O.D by helping both of them,the best is tat i can cover up for them.by doing this,i can gain all the rights,i dun care,i am going against them.i will conduct P.T lyk before as wat i kept the promise to the 2 P.T.I.i will never sabotage my frenz by going against the promise i kept to them.moreover,i am the P.T.I,i have the rights to conduct P.T,the H.O.D have no rights to stop me from conducting P.T.are they the P.T.Is?if no,they will have to shut their mouths up!!if yes,i really have nothing to say....
i am not a nice guy to be step on...
doesn't mean tat big can solve all the problems.
i pity the Sec 1 and Sec 2s.
especially Sec 2s,they were always punish by higherpost, is it fair to them???
wonder why are the higher posts lyk tat,i hate them taking things juz too seriously.
there is a time for play and a time for seriousness,of course,i am not siding anyone,but it is about fairness.did i owe the Sec 3s anything in my past life???
why are they always against me????i hate being treated in this kind of stupid manner.
everyone is born equal and eat the kind of same food,nevermind,i will brave my life wif them.

finally

2006-07-27T16:42:00.001+08:00

hahaha!!!today tough club,i saw kelson seah,thinking tat he will not let me play basketball wif tough club members,he let me play.today lessons were stressful,i could not simply understand most of the lessons taught.dunno is it i could not understand or teacher never teach properly.the whole class was in havoc during lessons,very noisy indeed!i am not trying to say tat i am very good,i got scolding by Sir Chris coz people in the front is listening yet at the back,people are playing fool.dunno whether is my P.T too boring or people simply dun lyk me.to me,being scolded does not matter so much,but trust must be there so tat i can conduct P.T smoothly
conducting P.T become a stain in me!!

the most interesting person

2006-07-24T16:29:00.000+08:00

hahaha!!!i am Darren here from Npcc,one of the kindest Pti on earth!no one in Npcc is really bad!i am good in physical training n i am the 1st in class for 2.4km!wan to know more abt me?approach me in school!

i am the strongest

sometimes i ask myself "why must i have a cold-blooded friend?"

living in a world of sparring is always fun and interesting...

very much in sick bcoz i hv got a disease...

everyday seems to be raining..

nowadays,everything seems to get bored...

the art of fighting without fighting,is it true?

is life full of climax?

the cookery day was very fun but tiring...

i have an overview of china martial arts..very impressed..

today is a day of misery and yesterday is a tiring day..

today is both sad and happy..

studying the whole day seems like nothing is being absorbed...

studying the whole day seems like nothing is being absorbed...

everyday seems to be bored although exams are coming to an end..

today is indeed a long day...

oh!god save the country..O levels are toturing and confusing..

inspiration comes into Eric's mind just like that...

i am hitting the roof over a particular person in my class..

mock exams coming my way..

there is no meaning in life..

my life is very stressed up and i am tired of living..

seems like this year is coming to an end soon..

tomorrow is going to be my presentation for O levels oral exam..

i think i am the only 1 left behind for studies..

headache is happening so frequently...

the things which i studied seems to be forgotten..

today was a bad day..

Happy National Day to everybody!!!

everyday seems to be very disastrous..

study makes me stress..

Pssst..guess who?

what a bad day,i had..

today is a day of survival..

life is unfair...

past few days is a disaster..

so sad

i m goin to kill u

today is a very bad day for me.

hey its me sam

nowadays,the weather is unpredictable..

why is life so miserable??

hi,i am back after a long time...

today is a boring day..

today n yesterday is my best days ever..

christmas eve,what am i going to do???

i wrote tis to make Everlyn happy..

wat a relieve!!

hi,i am back after a long period..

examz are over!!!

now,examz are finally over!!!!

who is darren?

today????

haha!!i am back !!!

boring

good,now i changed my handphone no.

the dayz are boring!!!!!

why am i so miserable?????????

to challenge someone is not easy!!!

nowadayz raining so badly!!!

y is every1 lyk this???

diE!!!there are lots of things during holidays!!!

diE!!!there are lots of things during holidays!!!

yes!!!finally,exams are gone!!!!

today is my chinese paper!!!!

hahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the chapt are gettin difficult!!!

everyone!!takin a rest!!

Faizal Sucks to the core!!!!!!!!!!!

~~Sad Dayz~~

hi!got ATC camp somemore still got stupid exam coming,so tired of living

hi!!!now is school holidays,dunno wat to do???

i got my target!!!!!!!!

i am happy!!!

so sad!my frenz are not wif me now!

hello!everyone

hey!everyone,exam is over!

hey!everyone!got exam,so i will only log in next week.

hey!!everyone i am back!!!!!!!!

today i got holiday homework!!!omg,still got exam!!Die for sure!!!!!

Sad Dayz